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So that last entry was kinda bitter. Sorry.
Anyway, I am in my very last week of chemo and I could not be more excited.
Here are just some random facts running through my head:
- Chemo sucks but I only have 2 more days….YAY!!!!
- I am sooo happy that I got to see my Branton Friday and have lunch with him! I really miss that boy. He’s so amazing. And I cannot forget Candace. She is….she just is. I don’t know what I would do without her. They are the cutest couple and I love spending time with them both together and separately.
- Jen, Jessie, Ace, and I started Tuesday Night Dinner Dates where we rotate houses and cook dinner but everyone has been sooo stressed with classes that it hasn’t happened in a while. Instead we meet at the library. I am glad I get to see them but I really hope we soon go back to Dinner Dates. I kinda liked those more than homework.
- Along with those dinners, Ben, Leah and I decided we don’t spend enough time together so every other week we are going to meet for dinner somewhere and that makes me SUPER DUPER excited!
- Logan created a Xanga and I am glad…if only that whore would write something in it. Just anything girl. What you did that day, a story, a poem, your thoughts or feelings on something, or just random crap like this! Whatever comes into your little head my love.
- Speaking of, I really wish Logan would come visit soon. But plane tickets are so expensive and we are poor college kids. It’s too long of a drive to come by herself but I want it to be just us (and my friends here obviously) because I think that would be the most fun! I REALLY wish she would come out here and do grad school. That would be awesome to live with her!
Here’s an idea girl. I am a year more behind you. So just move out here, get a job and work for a year and save money. Then when I start grad school you can too and you will be a resident and not have to pay out of state. OR just move her and do my job, Jumpstart, and they will pay your schooling regardless if you are out-of-state- or in-state….think about it! :D
- Mizzou football is 6-0 and that has happened in like 30+ years so things are pretty exciting in Tiger Territory. Plus that guarantees us a Bowl Game. AND we are the only team in the Big 12 Conference who is undefeated. Go us!
- I want Julie to come home right now. I didn’t think I would miss her this much but I really do. It’s getting cold and I want to lay in my bed and watch movies and be dumb girls and be silly with her. Something about her, we’re a different type of silly than I am with my other girl friends. I can’t wait for her to come back and come to Mizzou and party with me and me go to Truman and party with her!!
- I am stressed with all this missing school. I wake at 8am, am in classes in the morning, grab a quick lunch, head to the preschool to work, get back to campus around 6pm, grab some dinner, then head to the library until 2am when I kicked out. It’s always this exam or this paper. And then the constant stress and worry and pain and fatigue of cancer….geez. College was hard enough before all this.
- I am stoked that my little cousin might be coming to Mizzou. We can do so many fun things and dinner and have picnics and play soccer and just spend lazy Sundays together and studying together in the library and so much more! I love how my circle of loved ones at Mizzou only gets bigger. Now if she doesn’t come that will be a disappoint to me. Especially because I know Leah fo sho is excited too! And I’m sure Ben is too.
- Drew has decided that he is coming in to Columbia for the rest of the home football games and that makes me excited. We get along really well and have a lot of laughs together so I am looking forward to it especially because Tiger football is just a HUGE thing we have in common and we’re gonna get a little crazy!!!!!!
- I am excited that I can be drunk for Homecoming. Don’t worry, I will only have one drink but I’m sure that’s all my little body needs.
- Neal is coming to Columbia on the 28th and I am excited! Shut it all of you! He has been a huge support for me through this and I miss him. It was hard not seeing his face there by my side like I would have wanted but hearing his voice and the concern made things a little better. I am just glad I finally get to see him and have some fun with him. It’s been depressing that last few times we’ve talked or seen each other so a good weekend is needed.
- I had a much needed weekend of fun. After the adventure of getting my car to start, Jessie, Ben and I arrived in good ol’ Arnold. We (minus Ben) headed down to Pius for the Homcoming football game with Beth. There weren’t many people there but I was glad to see those that I did…especially Kim Paz!!!! And some of the teachers. But the real fun of the weekend occurred Saturday. First of all, the closed the Pasta House in Columbia! Bastards! It was mine and Jessie and Jen’s fav! So at 11:30am we met for lunch and then Jen and I headed to the mall and bought us some cute new clothes and shoes and haircuts. I had so much fun with her…as always. Then we went to a park to waste some time and it was a BEAUTIFUL day and we just talked and enjoyed each other’s company and caught up on things. Then we headed to Jessie’s to eat some fantastic BBQ and watch the Mizzou game…where we became 6-0. Then we had cake for Jessie’s birthday and headed to the Landing. It was mine and Jessie’s first time ever going out downtown in St. Louis since we’ve been 21. We went to Emily’s apartment, grabbed her and went to Club Buca. We went to Throttle halfway through the night and then back to Buca. Although I don’t dance I had a lot of fun!!!! Plus I got to see John Knakal and Jimbo….whom I hadn’t seen in forever. Plus a late night out (4am) is what I needed!!!!!
- I mentioned a while ago how I was upset that Ben wouldn’t be able to sit with me during chemo and as my last week approached I was very upset. But I have other loving family members who are more than happy to go with me. Today that person was my Aunt Anne. I woke up today in the middle of chemo and she was gone so I just assumed she was getting coffee or something. So I got up and went to the bathroom. When I came back in my room BEN WAS STANDING THERE with my Aunt Anne. I was soooo excited. Of course I teared up but that’s because I am a baby! I was so glad he got to spend a day there with me. (even though I slept some..sorry Ben I tried not to.) I love him oh so much!
- More greatness came today with a phone call from my Aunt Janet telling me she had an extra ticket to the CARDINAL’S PLAYOFF GAME ON SATURDAY!!!! I am sooo excited!!!!! Pujols is a pimp and his team has joined him in the pimpness and now I get to partake in all the pimp to be had!!!!! Don’t worry, many pics will be taken with my aunt and I going crazy…maybe we can get Uncle Rich to get a lil crazy!!! (And Janet, I know you’re reading this, we ARE staying until the end. Rich won’t leave us and he can’t possibly carry us out so it’s settled…we stay!)
- On a sad note, Jessie’s birthday is Friday and I am very upset that I cannot be there. It’s out of my control and she obviously understands that but she is my BEST friend, my sister and my soulmate. I should be there. I feel HORRIBLE. I want to be there so badly! I want to be the one to take care of her at the end of the night and lounge around with her hung-over butt on Saturday. I guess I will just have to make up for it on Homecoming weekend…at least I can get drunk with her then! Man I really love that girl and could not EVER imagine a friendship better than the one we have.
Okay I am finished this was long but I was in a mood and had all these thoughts running through my bitty chemo brain!!!
Anyway, I am in my very last week of chemo and I could not be more excited.
Here are just some random facts running through my head:
- Chemo sucks but I only have 2 more days….YAY!!!!
- I am sooo happy that I got to see my Branton Friday and have lunch with him! I really miss that boy. He’s so amazing. And I cannot forget Candace. She is….she just is. I don’t know what I would do without her. They are the cutest couple and I love spending time with them both together and separately.
- Jen, Jessie, Ace, and I started Tuesday Night Dinner Dates where we rotate houses and cook dinner but everyone has been sooo stressed with classes that it hasn’t happened in a while. Instead we meet at the library. I am glad I get to see them but I really hope we soon go back to Dinner Dates. I kinda liked those more than homework.
- Along with those dinners, Ben, Leah and I decided we don’t spend enough time together so every other week we are going to meet for dinner somewhere and that makes me SUPER DUPER excited!
- Logan created a Xanga and I am glad…if only that whore would write something in it. Just anything girl. What you did that day, a story, a poem, your thoughts or feelings on something, or just random crap like this! Whatever comes into your little head my love.
- Speaking of, I really wish Logan would come visit soon. But plane tickets are so expensive and we are poor college kids. It’s too long of a drive to come by herself but I want it to be just us (and my friends here obviously) because I think that would be the most fun! I REALLY wish she would come out here and do grad school. That would be awesome to live with her!
Here’s an idea girl. I am a year more behind you. So just move out here, get a job and work for a year and save money. Then when I start grad school you can too and you will be a resident and not have to pay out of state. OR just move her and do my job, Jumpstart, and they will pay your schooling regardless if you are out-of-state- or in-state….think about it! :D
- Mizzou football is 6-0 and that has happened in like 30+ years so things are pretty exciting in Tiger Territory. Plus that guarantees us a Bowl Game. AND we are the only team in the Big 12 Conference who is undefeated. Go us!
- I want Julie to come home right now. I didn’t think I would miss her this much but I really do. It’s getting cold and I want to lay in my bed and watch movies and be dumb girls and be silly with her. Something about her, we’re a different type of silly than I am with my other girl friends. I can’t wait for her to come back and come to Mizzou and party with me and me go to Truman and party with her!!
- I am stressed with all this missing school. I wake at 8am, am in classes in the morning, grab a quick lunch, head to the preschool to work, get back to campus around 6pm, grab some dinner, then head to the library until 2am when I kicked out. It’s always this exam or this paper. And then the constant stress and worry and pain and fatigue of cancer….geez. College was hard enough before all this.
- I am stoked that my little cousin might be coming to Mizzou. We can do so many fun things and dinner and have picnics and play soccer and just spend lazy Sundays together and studying together in the library and so much more! I love how my circle of loved ones at Mizzou only gets bigger. Now if she doesn’t come that will be a disappoint to me. Especially because I know Leah fo sho is excited too! And I’m sure Ben is too.
- Drew has decided that he is coming in to Columbia for the rest of the home football games and that makes me excited. We get along really well and have a lot of laughs together so I am looking forward to it especially because Tiger football is just a HUGE thing we have in common and we’re gonna get a little crazy!!!!!!
- I am excited that I can be drunk for Homecoming. Don’t worry, I will only have one drink but I’m sure that’s all my little body needs.
- Neal is coming to Columbia on the 28th and I am excited! Shut it all of you! He has been a huge support for me through this and I miss him. It was hard not seeing his face there by my side like I would have wanted but hearing his voice and the concern made things a little better. I am just glad I finally get to see him and have some fun with him. It’s been depressing that last few times we’ve talked or seen each other so a good weekend is needed.
- I had a much needed weekend of fun. After the adventure of getting my car to start, Jessie, Ben and I arrived in good ol’ Arnold. We (minus Ben) headed down to Pius for the Homcoming football game with Beth. There weren’t many people there but I was glad to see those that I did…especially Kim Paz!!!! And some of the teachers. But the real fun of the weekend occurred Saturday. First of all, the closed the Pasta House in Columbia! Bastards! It was mine and Jessie and Jen’s fav! So at 11:30am we met for lunch and then Jen and I headed to the mall and bought us some cute new clothes and shoes and haircuts. I had so much fun with her…as always. Then we went to a park to waste some time and it was a BEAUTIFUL day and we just talked and enjoyed each other’s company and caught up on things. Then we headed to Jessie’s to eat some fantastic BBQ and watch the Mizzou game…where we became 6-0. Then we had cake for Jessie’s birthday and headed to the Landing. It was mine and Jessie’s first time ever going out downtown in St. Louis since we’ve been 21. We went to Emily’s apartment, grabbed her and went to Club Buca. We went to Throttle halfway through the night and then back to Buca. Although I don’t dance I had a lot of fun!!!! Plus I got to see John Knakal and Jimbo….whom I hadn’t seen in forever. Plus a late night out (4am) is what I needed!!!!!
- I mentioned a while ago how I was upset that Ben wouldn’t be able to sit with me during chemo and as my last week approached I was very upset. But I have other loving family members who are more than happy to go with me. Today that person was my Aunt Anne. I woke up today in the middle of chemo and she was gone so I just assumed she was getting coffee or something. So I got up and went to the bathroom. When I came back in my room BEN WAS STANDING THERE with my Aunt Anne. I was soooo excited. Of course I teared up but that’s because I am a baby! I was so glad he got to spend a day there with me. (even though I slept some..sorry Ben I tried not to.) I love him oh so much!
- More greatness came today with a phone call from my Aunt Janet telling me she had an extra ticket to the CARDINAL’S PLAYOFF GAME ON SATURDAY!!!! I am sooo excited!!!!! Pujols is a pimp and his team has joined him in the pimpness and now I get to partake in all the pimp to be had!!!!! Don’t worry, many pics will be taken with my aunt and I going crazy…maybe we can get Uncle Rich to get a lil crazy!!! (And Janet, I know you’re reading this, we ARE staying until the end. Rich won’t leave us and he can’t possibly carry us out so it’s settled…we stay!)
- On a sad note, Jessie’s birthday is Friday and I am very upset that I cannot be there. It’s out of my control and she obviously understands that but she is my BEST friend, my sister and my soulmate. I should be there. I feel HORRIBLE. I want to be there so badly! I want to be the one to take care of her at the end of the night and lounge around with her hung-over butt on Saturday. I guess I will just have to make up for it on Homecoming weekend…at least I can get drunk with her then! Man I really love that girl and could not EVER imagine a friendship better than the one we have.
Okay I am finished this was long but I was in a mood and had all these thoughts running through my bitty chemo brain!!!