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So last night at midnight I took my hair down from my ponytail and just ran my fingers through my hair to get it flat....and this happened
I was devastated. I mean, words cannot express what I felt. My sister was the only one awake (thank God I was home when this happened) so I walked in her room with silent tears streaming down my face, turned on her light and held up my hand. She immediately threw the covers off her and as I sat down she just embraced me. I began SOBBING and she cried with me. She then went to get my mother who walked in saying "what's wrong?" When I held up my handful of hair she gasped and sat down next to me and began crying as well. So here I am sitting with my mom and sister holding me as my dad walks in and says "is something wrong?" I hold up my hand and he bends over, holds all three of us, cries, and in a soft quiet voice says, "well we know the chemo is working now."
I seriously LOVE my family. If only my brother was here. I continued sobbing for a good 2 hours as more and more hair fell out. I knew that the next day I would need to take care of it to make the process easier. But my bestest friend Julie called me from New Zealand to talk to me. I love her and miss her so much. THAT is a good friend!
This is what it had looked like by this morning....sooooo incredibly thin:
So today atfter the doctor I went to my friend's uncle's salon and he shaved my head. It was the hardest thing ever. My mom sat there and held my hand and we cried the whole time. I don't wanna talk about it actually, sorry. Then he put my wig on. It's a permanent bond that will hold for 30 days. I can shower with it, sleep in it, blow dry it, curl it, flat iron it....anything I would do to my normal hair. (It's real human hair.) I just go back every 30 days and he reapplies it. And here it is!
that was on the car ride back to Columbia....it's parted down the middle which is not my style....so when I got home we played with it:
we curled the ends and parted it on the side and did all kinds of stuff with it. I'm not happy about losing my hair but this wig is beautiful and I have been trying to grow my hair to this length for FOREVER so this is nice.
I seriously have the most amazing and supportive family....and the best friends anyone could ask for. Everyone talks about how strong and brave I am...well it's their fault. And I thank them for it. I love you all and God bless!!!