ugh
so the wife got paid last night. and sure, it was only one week worth of pay because we went down the shore, but it is about $100 short of what it took to put our little man into daycare. which means, we are $100 short of the next two weeks, we don't have the money for the electric bill. i am going to have to pay it, but i am not sure how i am going to be able to afford it.
i am trying to be supportive. i really am. but she isn't making any money working at this place, and she puts in 50 hours a week. i mean, how the hell are we supposed to maintain a marriage, when work has us working oppossing days, and she never comes home on time. I get that there are certain days that she stays later, and i should prepare for them. But the days that she could come home on time, she is going out with her new friends. i love that she is making new friends. i am really trying to support that, but I have to keep lil d up so late just see her. i really want to support her, but she never sees lil d, she never sees me. the last time we had sex was in cape may. its been two weeks since we have been in cape may. i don't imagine we will be doing anything any time soon. she is so tired, all the damn time. and she started smoking a pack a day again. so when she wakes up she can't move her hands, and he arms shake, because she has shitty circulation due to her smoking. not to mention that's $35 a week, and we late on cable, water, and electric not to mention this job is costing us $100 for dexter's day care and $30 a week for transportation. and just so you know, this $130 is after i take out the money she is bringing in, and doesn't include her smoking habit, or when she buys lunch.
sometimes i seriously think she wants to live as two seperate people in one house. like a roommate who shares a bed. and honestly, i might be abe to go out and get some if we lived like that. probably not, because i would become the live in nanny when she was out.
i am trying to be supportive. i really am. but she isn't making any money working at this place, and she puts in 50 hours a week. i mean, how the hell are we supposed to maintain a marriage, when work has us working oppossing days, and she never comes home on time. I get that there are certain days that she stays later, and i should prepare for them. But the days that she could come home on time, she is going out with her new friends. i love that she is making new friends. i am really trying to support that, but I have to keep lil d up so late just see her. i really want to support her, but she never sees lil d, she never sees me. the last time we had sex was in cape may. its been two weeks since we have been in cape may. i don't imagine we will be doing anything any time soon. she is so tired, all the damn time. and she started smoking a pack a day again. so when she wakes up she can't move her hands, and he arms shake, because she has shitty circulation due to her smoking. not to mention that's $35 a week, and we late on cable, water, and electric not to mention this job is costing us $100 for dexter's day care and $30 a week for transportation. and just so you know, this $130 is after i take out the money she is bringing in, and doesn't include her smoking habit, or when she buys lunch.
sometimes i seriously think she wants to live as two seperate people in one house. like a roommate who shares a bed. and honestly, i might be abe to go out and get some if we lived like that. probably not, because i would become the live in nanny when she was out.