i was saved by grace and destroyed by naivety, and i lied to myself and said it was for the best....
In the past few days I have realized something. Good souls know when another soul is weeping. It must be some type of radar. In the last couple of days everyone has been so nice to me, my life has been great and yet so sad. I just don't even know what to do with myself.
I've done so well in classes.
Finals have been a breeze, and I should be passing all my classes, despite prior beliefs.
We were told we get the first room that opens up in Mccormack when we come back.
Everyone goes out of their way to say hello, or just talk to me.
I've made amends with people I wasn't on good terms with in the past.
I have a place to stay if I decide to take BCOM 266 this summer.
I bought great presents for my mom, dad and sister.
I have a lot more friends down here then I did.
But something is missing....
I feel like I should be so much happier than I am.
I feel like I should just let this go.
I feel like I should just chalk it up as a loss and move on.
I feel like I'm being ridiculous.
I feel like there is something....anything...I could say....
I haven't seen you in days.
I avoid you...you avoid me....we avoid each other.
You say it's for the best....I try to tell myself the same....
Maybe you're right, maybe it just doesnt work.....then why do I think about you all the time....
why do I keep finding these pictures everywhere, of me, you, us.....
if all we did was fight then why are we smiling, why are these pictures so....so you...me ....us....
I leave tommorrow....
I wake up...
I study...
I take my finals back to back...
I finish...
I clean up my room...
I get my things together....
I start the engine...
I go home....
I go home....
I go home...
I go home..
I go home.
I never thought I'd leave like this;
I never thought Christmas would feel like this.
Love, Daniel
I've done so well in classes.
Finals have been a breeze, and I should be passing all my classes, despite prior beliefs.
We were told we get the first room that opens up in Mccormack when we come back.
Everyone goes out of their way to say hello, or just talk to me.
I've made amends with people I wasn't on good terms with in the past.
I have a place to stay if I decide to take BCOM 266 this summer.
I bought great presents for my mom, dad and sister.
I have a lot more friends down here then I did.
But something is missing....
I feel like I should be so much happier than I am.
I feel like I should just let this go.
I feel like I should just chalk it up as a loss and move on.
I feel like I'm being ridiculous.
I feel like there is something....anything...I could say....
I haven't seen you in days.
I avoid you...you avoid me....we avoid each other.
You say it's for the best....I try to tell myself the same....
Maybe you're right, maybe it just doesnt work.....then why do I think about you all the time....
why do I keep finding these pictures everywhere, of me, you, us.....
if all we did was fight then why are we smiling, why are these pictures so....so you...me ....us....
I leave tommorrow....
I wake up...
I study...
I take my finals back to back...
I finish...
I clean up my room...
I get my things together....
I start the engine...
I go home....
I go home....
I go home...
I go home..
I go home.
I never thought I'd leave like this;
I never thought Christmas would feel like this.
Love, Daniel