Things are totally different now
So it's been about 7 weeks since the last update. when i made that last update i was totally high. it's kind of funny that i'm making this update just after getting home from rehab. see what drugs do to you. they stick it in your butt... and they make you pay $25 a week to park ridge chemical dependency programs. i could do my usual and say fuck that, but really that would be way retarded. I won't lie, i hadn't some of the funnest times i've had, but it wasn't worth the money, time, and brain cells. but it sure as hell was fun. but i'm done with that stuff now. i really wish i still had my pipe because it looked so sweet. little glass sherlock with swirls up the stem that changed colors. very cool looking. but yeah i'm done with pot. i'm done with all my family nights and i only have a few weeks of rehab left. it gets done on february 24th which is the thursday of february break. But as soon as you sit down for your first group you think to yourself, "wow i must've really fucked up." They make you do intros where you say your name, last use date, your pain 0-10, how your feeling, and then the last thing would change from week to week. it was usually like name a positive aspect about yourself or tell the best experience you had today. But i haven't smoked since december 21st, the night i got caught. and for all of you who listen to the bullshit that it only takes 3 days to get out of your system, my first negative pee test was last week on the 26th. so what's that like 35 or 36 days? so fuck those people that say it takes 3 days. life's nice when you can actually remember shit. it's a very different life, but it's the better of the two. i lost a couple of people that were really important to me because of my smoking and it totally sucks. i was even as much of an asshole as trying to get one of them to smoke, which i totally regret and feel horrible about. i guess it's all a part of my punishment for getting caught up in the drugs. if you're a stoner and you're reading this, try to slow it down a little bit. i mean even if you don't stop completely, take like 3-5 days off and smoke then. tell me how you feel after smoking on that 3rd-5th day. i can tell you you'll be feeling real good. and for the non-drug abusers out there, congratulations because you were a lot stronger than i was.