"I'm well aware of how I ain't"
So... I am very pleased to say that I was able to get Brandy a ticket to come to Germany for my graduation. I had been working on getting a ticket since December and now I got one. Mind you she will be visiting 4 different countries, but thankfully she doesn't mind. She will be here for about 3 or so weeks and will be leaving for KY a day or so before I do. One thing I've wanted to do since I moved here was share my experience with one of my friends and now I get to do that with my best friend. If things with my family get any better, I will have the best graduation ever, because I will have the people I want there.
However, it doesn't look as though things will be getting better any time soon. I really am quite ashamed that people show very little respect towards my parents. I know that my parents have reasons for making the rules they make and if someone actually promises to abide by those rules then they should. To break those rules though is a great sign of disrespect and if that rule involves other people and they do know about the rule and still goes behind the back of the person who set them in place then that is also very disrespectful. Also, since this is in respect to my parents and the rules they have set forth and they know for a fact that they have been disrespected then that is wrong and I have no respect for those people. Of course, at the end of my Christmas holiday I had very little respect for them then.
Yes; I am lashing out at people because I am trying to be indirect. Which is only fair because if someone has the decency to say rude things behind my back when I live in a different country and have no way of defending myself, then why can't write about it? Am I worried about it offending anyone? No, not at all because I hope it does and I hope my point is clearly made and I want people to know that I am deeply upset about this. I have yet to understand why people would do and say the things they do when it can really hurt someone. Do these people actually mean to hurt someone by the words they say? I mean, this person is innocent and didn't deserve to have the things said about them and yet these people have not seen why what they said is wrong. I don't plan on seeing these people realizing this for a while, but I will say that I am done defending those people. If you don't want to see what you did as wrong, then fine that's your decision, but do not be disrespectful and break promises and lie about doing such things.
If I manage to make people even more upset, then so be it because I can't and won't care. I can't focus my time of such things that will continue to wear me down. You have lost my respect and the respect of my family and I can't be around people like that. You are who you hang out with and I don't want to be like that.
-Chels
However, it doesn't look as though things will be getting better any time soon. I really am quite ashamed that people show very little respect towards my parents. I know that my parents have reasons for making the rules they make and if someone actually promises to abide by those rules then they should. To break those rules though is a great sign of disrespect and if that rule involves other people and they do know about the rule and still goes behind the back of the person who set them in place then that is also very disrespectful. Also, since this is in respect to my parents and the rules they have set forth and they know for a fact that they have been disrespected then that is wrong and I have no respect for those people. Of course, at the end of my Christmas holiday I had very little respect for them then.
Yes; I am lashing out at people because I am trying to be indirect. Which is only fair because if someone has the decency to say rude things behind my back when I live in a different country and have no way of defending myself, then why can't write about it? Am I worried about it offending anyone? No, not at all because I hope it does and I hope my point is clearly made and I want people to know that I am deeply upset about this. I have yet to understand why people would do and say the things they do when it can really hurt someone. Do these people actually mean to hurt someone by the words they say? I mean, this person is innocent and didn't deserve to have the things said about them and yet these people have not seen why what they said is wrong. I don't plan on seeing these people realizing this for a while, but I will say that I am done defending those people. If you don't want to see what you did as wrong, then fine that's your decision, but do not be disrespectful and break promises and lie about doing such things.
If I manage to make people even more upset, then so be it because I can't and won't care. I can't focus my time of such things that will continue to wear me down. You have lost my respect and the respect of my family and I can't be around people like that. You are who you hang out with and I don't want to be like that.
-Chels