I just thought that I could change it. It is so utterly stupid that I stay in friendships where there is a lack of reciprocation. It's utterly damning to admit this. Are there other things that are utterly damning for someone else to admit as well? I'm sick of trying to help people get over their insecure self satisfying selves. I am so, so, so, so ( Read more... )

I have two blog accounts and I can't seem to copy/paste on this particular school computer. My entry from a few days ago

Of course I waited till the last 15 minutes before the library closes but was having a hard time coming up with anything to say, until now, at the point when I feel a responsibility to make up for a skipped commitment. Hmm, was looking at jewelry and clothing online for the last few hours and possibly an idea for a tattoo. Always wanted to get one ( Read more... )

With such good news from Columbia I feel like putting all of my stuff in storage and hopping around for a little bit. I've felt stagnant and not myself for months. Not like I'm being pushed into a box but rather rattled really hard until my pieces fall out. I'm surprised I haven't gotten one of those dreams where you're teeth fall out. Chances are ( Read more... )

In the news today I found an article on this. Rather amusing. It made me laugh. Some people are so serious about family. I especially like how the wikipedia's description of how Roy Bates overtook the fort was with a "physical fight". Like what did he do? Headbutt them off deck? He "physically expelled" squatters at the first fort, before moving ( Read more... )

Good news is I'm going back to school this semester. I'd like to get it all done with so I can move on. I'd like to go to FIT next fall. Hmmm, my soul hurts so much today. I have to stop people from walking all over me. I'm afraid that if I fight back I'll lose something or someone. How do you reverse a relationship to a level of decency and ( Read more... )

Up at Columbia today. The campus is utterly delightful right now without all the students around. Especially, the ones hopped up on prescription amphetamines, caffeine, and their own inflated egos. I think I'll be making my way up here a little more often before the semester starts. Somehow people traffic gets even more annoying in the winter. The ( Read more... )

This was far too good not to pass on. I haven't been able to view the videos. Berel or the writer might be guilty of exageration, since I never heard about a weekly party. Although I did go to mushroom infused Rosh Hashana. And later got a text about causing a ruckus at the kaballah center, leading to them getting thrown out. Kaballah sucks for ( Read more... )