Because I need you more...
well, first i'm going to put down 2 songs and explain their significance...
because i need you more than you need me
because i want you more i know
because we move too fucking fast
i think i really had to wish to make this last i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
because i cared way more
because i really felt that you felt so much more i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you could
Well actually the only parts that i can totally i really identify with are the bolded ones, cuz the rest doesn't fit me.... what ahould i be sorry for? and yea, thats just how i feel about him. i talked to him on the phone last night and today
If you want me to wait,
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say,
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Don't tell me
The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me
That you need me
And stay right here with me
theres no real poit to putting the rest of that song up, but last night he said the second he gets his liscence hes coming to see me, and doing whatever it takes to get me back, and i can't really tell him this but in a way i do but the again i kinda don't.... I would wait for him as long as i had to to get him back if i knew i was going to, i love him with every atom of my existance and everything in me and i just want him him to know that but i can't... even when we were together i could never get out exactly how i felt, i just told him that i love him more than she would ever know or imagine, because that is all i can say. i can never really say what i just typed to him, i dunno why, i just choked up everytime i tried. i would give anything to have him back because i was so happy. when i was with him everything was perfect and nothing mattered, when we talk on the phone and on IM he tells me all the time that he loves me and misses me and about how he wishes he never made the mistake of leaving me and he feels weak because he couldn't handle the distance. and i actually i cry, he doesn't know it, i never tell him, i hide it but i cry, last night he went on this thing and told me about how he misses me and he feels like an asshole and that he loves me so fucking much. I cried myself to sleep last night. one day i'll get it out i hope. Tommy randomly stopped by tonight cuz he wanted to see me. He kissed me when he left, he didn't kiss me last night, but he did tonight. As much as i don't want to admit it but when i was kissing him i thought of Gonzo... but yea....
Today was my first day of work... it was interesting...it wasn't bad either i actually like it so far but yea... i think i'm gonna go for now cuz i have to get to bed soon.... i have to be at work at 12 2marra...
Later Days kiddies,
~Shane aka Maris
because i need you more than you need me
because i want you more i know
because we move too fucking fast
i think i really had to wish to make this last i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
because i cared way more
because i really felt that you felt so much more i know
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you would
i'm sorry please forgive me, believe me if you could
Well actually the only parts that i can totally i really identify with are the bolded ones, cuz the rest doesn't fit me.... what ahould i be sorry for? and yea, thats just how i feel about him. i talked to him on the phone last night and today
If you want me to wait,
I will wait for you
If you tell me to stay,
I would stay right through
If you don't wanna say,
Anything at all
I'm happy wondering
Don't tell me
The bad news
Don't tell me anything at all
Just tell me
That you need me
And stay right here with me
theres no real poit to putting the rest of that song up, but last night he said the second he gets his liscence hes coming to see me, and doing whatever it takes to get me back, and i can't really tell him this but in a way i do but the again i kinda don't.... I would wait for him as long as i had to to get him back if i knew i was going to, i love him with every atom of my existance and everything in me and i just want him him to know that but i can't... even when we were together i could never get out exactly how i felt, i just told him that i love him more than she would ever know or imagine, because that is all i can say. i can never really say what i just typed to him, i dunno why, i just choked up everytime i tried. i would give anything to have him back because i was so happy. when i was with him everything was perfect and nothing mattered, when we talk on the phone and on IM he tells me all the time that he loves me and misses me and about how he wishes he never made the mistake of leaving me and he feels weak because he couldn't handle the distance. and i actually i cry, he doesn't know it, i never tell him, i hide it but i cry, last night he went on this thing and told me about how he misses me and he feels like an asshole and that he loves me so fucking much. I cried myself to sleep last night. one day i'll get it out i hope. Tommy randomly stopped by tonight cuz he wanted to see me. He kissed me when he left, he didn't kiss me last night, but he did tonight. As much as i don't want to admit it but when i was kissing him i thought of Gonzo... but yea....
Today was my first day of work... it was interesting...it wasn't bad either i actually like it so far but yea... i think i'm gonna go for now cuz i have to get to bed soon.... i have to be at work at 12 2marra...
Later Days kiddies,
~Shane aka Maris