New musings
Yay for random musings.
Last night crazyjoyfulgirl, angelstart, and I were discussing movies on the phone, specifically Signs and Boondock Saints. I already posted my opinions about Signs, but it was mentioned to me about how much I love Boondock Saints, which is also religious, and actually more so than Signs. I got defensive last night but I really started thinking about it today, and especially while I was watching Serenity with my mom.
The first time I watched Serenity it was for the storyline and the pretty and I didn’t really catch everything. But this time, what Book said really hit me. He talks to Mal about having faith. And the line that really got to me was when he tells Mal that Mal needs faith and Mal’s like, “Shepherd you know how I feel about God.” Book replies with “Why do you always assume that when I talk about faith I mean God?”
That really hit me, because that’s exactly what Foxie and Pet had been saying while we were discussing Signs last night. And I realize that Book and Foxie and Pet are right….
My problem mostly revolves around my hate of religion due to all the personal shit I’ve had happen to me in my life. But the thing is that none of it’s ever really been personal personal (with a few exceptions), I’ve just taken it that way because of me being an Atheist and how sensitive I am.
But it gets more complicated in my head because there are aspects of religion that I like and that I actually have a kink for. Which is where Boondock Saints comes in. There are many aspects of Catholicism that when in a certain context really appeal to my sense of kink. If I was standing in a church, they really wouldn’t, but in a dark twisted gothic sense, they do. All aspects of Boondock Saints, and a lot of the church stuff that is common with vampires and vampire lore gets me off. Like being burned by a cross or a bible… I dunno. I think I’m just really messed up that way. And then I love the mythology of things. I love learning about all the different patron saints and the angels and demons. It really interests me.
So I’m all confused. But at least I’ve identified my problem. And I just have to keep in mind what Pet and Foxie told me repeatedly, plus that quote from Book, because for some reason it puts things into perspective for me.
I just thought I’d post my thoughts, cuz writing things down that go around in my brain always lets me work through it.
Last night crazyjoyfulgirl, angelstart, and I were discussing movies on the phone, specifically Signs and Boondock Saints. I already posted my opinions about Signs, but it was mentioned to me about how much I love Boondock Saints, which is also religious, and actually more so than Signs. I got defensive last night but I really started thinking about it today, and especially while I was watching Serenity with my mom.
The first time I watched Serenity it was for the storyline and the pretty and I didn’t really catch everything. But this time, what Book said really hit me. He talks to Mal about having faith. And the line that really got to me was when he tells Mal that Mal needs faith and Mal’s like, “Shepherd you know how I feel about God.” Book replies with “Why do you always assume that when I talk about faith I mean God?”
That really hit me, because that’s exactly what Foxie and Pet had been saying while we were discussing Signs last night. And I realize that Book and Foxie and Pet are right….
My problem mostly revolves around my hate of religion due to all the personal shit I’ve had happen to me in my life. But the thing is that none of it’s ever really been personal personal (with a few exceptions), I’ve just taken it that way because of me being an Atheist and how sensitive I am.
But it gets more complicated in my head because there are aspects of religion that I like and that I actually have a kink for. Which is where Boondock Saints comes in. There are many aspects of Catholicism that when in a certain context really appeal to my sense of kink. If I was standing in a church, they really wouldn’t, but in a dark twisted gothic sense, they do. All aspects of Boondock Saints, and a lot of the church stuff that is common with vampires and vampire lore gets me off. Like being burned by a cross or a bible… I dunno. I think I’m just really messed up that way. And then I love the mythology of things. I love learning about all the different patron saints and the angels and demons. It really interests me.
So I’m all confused. But at least I’ve identified my problem. And I just have to keep in mind what Pet and Foxie told me repeatedly, plus that quote from Book, because for some reason it puts things into perspective for me.
I just thought I’d post my thoughts, cuz writing things down that go around in my brain always lets me work through it.