fic: my thoughts(not a fic)
i've been lazy. haven't posted in a while, but i had good reasons. my college started again some days ago, and my internet connection went cuckoo for a few days. so i just decided to take a break from posting. well anyway, to mark my progress so far, since my future plans post i have posted 1 Lena Spam, 2 fics, 1 part of my Camerah Masterlist and 2 random posts. the next Camerah Masterlist is on the way, in mid writing now, but it's not easy. Lena Spam, once i watch another 2 movies. random posts, well this is one. i'm most proud of the fact i've written 2 fics! ^^ can't believe i did, though they were just one shots...but proud still. i have more on the way, all itching at the tips of my fingers and i'm really inspired, especially after seeing that sarahcameron has been mostly dead. before that, lemme reupdate my list.
1) inspiredby Katy Perry's Thinking of You as mentioned in a previous post. it kinda shows four different perspectives. Derek, John, Cameron and finally Sarah. see why Derek dying is a big issue? and because it's suppose to take place post-series, under the premise of what if Sarah&co managed to stop Skynet? a snippet of what their lives could be. Camerah-centric. of course.
2) a conversation heavy oneshot that is my take on what could be the point where Sarah gives in.
3) a BDSM smut-fic. just because i have a thing for SM.
4) a long fic following every episode of season 2, capturing moments that the camera did not. (very unlikely this will get written)
5) another smut-fic. i just want them to roll around in bed. ^^ but it's not without some heavy moments.
6) a fluff oneshot inspired by the scene from Automatic for the People, where Sarah removes Cameron's hand from Kacy/Casey?'s belly.
7) a oneshot. Sarah has nightmares. Cameron comforts her
those striked out are those i've written. 2 became Crazy and 7 is No Strings Attached. now, for additional ideas that have come to me.
8) fluff oneshot involving laundry and ovulation. ^^
9) not sure of length but basic premise is that Cameron gets bored at night when everyone is asleep.
i'm pretty sure i had more, but i can't remember right now. well, that's okay for now. i'm working on no. 5, but it's proving harder than i thought so i might end up writing no. 8 first. i also want to write 1, 3, 6 and 9. 4 won't get written. i love the whole idea, but such a long fic requires lots of dedication. something i know by experience, i lack. i think oneshots are good for me.
for me, what is hardest about writing fics are the start and the end. i want to write a good start and a good end. a start that will capture attention and an end that will leave an impression. everything else in the middle, once i've started, will all fall into place. so starting is the crucial thing. once i start, it's usually easy breeze until i come to the ending, of course. then it's hard again. to me, there are 3 types of endings.
-good/satisfactory endings
-cliffhangers/make your own interpretation of what happened ending
-bad/no ending
good/satisfactory endings are those that makes the story whole. no loose gaps, no holes, nothing. a perfect end. may leave readers craving for more, but ultimately is an end that stands for itself. it doesn't necessarily have to be a happy ending, it can be tragic, character death and stuff as long as it fits the story. naturally, this ending is what i try to strive for in my fics. but when writing oneshots, i find that cliffhangers/make your own interpretation of what happened endings are more suitable. because -unless it's an epic oneshot- most oneshots are short and can only deliver so much i think open endings are better. it leaves oppurtunity for expansion, but it can also serve as an adequate ending. however, bad/no endings are just bad. this is the kind of ending that leaves me going 'huh???' this is the kind of ending that makes reading the whole story not worth it. it doesn't make sense and leaves things unexplained. there's no actual resolution, things just stop. so yea, that is the ending that i'd avoid. duh.
another thing about writing a fic i'd consider is whose POV to write it from and also whether to use 1st or 3rd person. i usually stick with 3rd person in fanfics because getting into some characters' heads is difficult and occasionally scary. for example, my previous pairing obsession from an anime, Mai-HiME, i could never get into the top's head because she is downright scary. piece of art really, that woman. but i love her so much. so yea, 3rd person because it is easier. as for POV's, i usually go for people whom i can connect with. with Camerah, that would be Sarah. well, mostly because Cameron is a machine. how would a machine see the world? i can't imagine it at all, so it's tough. i do want to try Cameron's POV though, in no. 3. and 8. and 6.
next thing, i'm an angst writer. that's all i'm good at writing. i have no idea why. i tried writing fluff before, but somehow, when i started writing, i suddenly got all these ideas to make the fic better and so and so i wrote and wrote and next thing i know, the fic had gotten really angsty. no trace of fluff anymore. and i didn't mean for that to happen, it just did. once in highschool, my teacher asked the class to write a story that starts with "I never thought that this would happen to me...." that could be anything, right? i won a lottery, i got straight A's, i anything happy, but instead my angsty mind took over and i wrote a story about two best friends who end up in different sides of the justice system and one killed the other. lol, that was just horrible, but i really liked it. too bad my teacher never gave it back. i mean, i even added a subtexty femslash moment at the end! (both friends were female) *sigh* then in an exam, the question asked to write a story that ends with "....they looked at each other and smiled." for all sanity that sounds like something on the happy, positive and cheerful note. but as i sat there thinking about it, again my angsty mind took over and i wrote a story about two siblings who ran away from home to escape their abusive parents. my teacher praised me for it, though she generally didn't like those kind of stories. ^^ so conclusion is, i can't write anything angst-free.
so....to write fluff, i'll try my best. but to write smut...hahaha, that's completely new territory. i don't know, i think i'm the type of writer who can't write out explicit or rather intimate scenes between people so well. i mean, i can envision them in my head pretty well but i just don't think i can put them on paper/screen as is. i guess i'm afraid it won't turn out good. so far, with all my previous fics i've avoided such scenes. there might be kissing, but anything more intimate, i left implication and left it there. like No Strings Attached, it should be pretty clear that Sarah and Cameron were sleeping with each other but i never explicitly mentioned it. i just think it's hard.
eh? it seems that i've written quite a length. i don't even know what my main point is. maybe i didn't have one. anyway, i'll work hard on the fics and everything else i'm supposed to post here. until then, i'm out. ^^