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Ok, so I wrote this last night because I was just feeling upset. It was so freaking weird. It was such an amazing day/night until the end when I started to think too much about the past. And I read this over today and it makes no fucking sense to me. It's like, I don't really care anymore... It's just really weirds me out. alexis and I hardly ever speak. I was going to delete it, but ya know, I don't care. whatever. One day I will look back on this and think, man, wtf was wrong w/ me lol...
Dear Alexis,
All I could think about today was you... I am sitting here in a hotel room in Mexico wondering why I can’t get you out my head and why I am crying over you again. I got to warn you that this is not going to be a pleasant e-mail.
I think that we should take a break from our friendship. I tried so hard to look beyond all the hurt because nobody has ever meant that much to me. I can’t do it anymore alexis…
All I can think about right now is how beautiful you looked when you slept in my arms that night… and then you woke up and smiled. And at that point i knew, that it wasn’t wrong- that no matter what everybody says- what I felt for you was real. I want you to know:
I love you in ways that I will never love anybody else. I wish we never would have gotten involved- because even thought it was the most beautiful thing that has happened to me, it does not compare to the misery that I have to live now. I don’t miss the hurt alexis- I don’t miss feeling like I don’t matter much to you… and I am sorry because i know that it’s not true… but it’s the only way that I can let you go… I have to convience myself that you don’t care and never did. I got to move on Alexis… please let me go- I don’t want to hurt anymore. I am sorry if this hurts you, but it hurts me too. Perhaps, one day when we are older we can be friends again. Perhaps if you had answer my questions things would be different, because I gave you all my trust and you held back- you held back too much. When I said, I love you, I meant it- you didn’t have to lie.
~mina
Dear Alexis,
All I could think about today was you... I am sitting here in a hotel room in Mexico wondering why I can’t get you out my head and why I am crying over you again. I got to warn you that this is not going to be a pleasant e-mail.
I think that we should take a break from our friendship. I tried so hard to look beyond all the hurt because nobody has ever meant that much to me. I can’t do it anymore alexis…
All I can think about right now is how beautiful you looked when you slept in my arms that night… and then you woke up and smiled. And at that point i knew, that it wasn’t wrong- that no matter what everybody says- what I felt for you was real. I want you to know:
I love you in ways that I will never love anybody else. I wish we never would have gotten involved- because even thought it was the most beautiful thing that has happened to me, it does not compare to the misery that I have to live now. I don’t miss the hurt alexis- I don’t miss feeling like I don’t matter much to you… and I am sorry because i know that it’s not true… but it’s the only way that I can let you go… I have to convience myself that you don’t care and never did. I got to move on Alexis… please let me go- I don’t want to hurt anymore. I am sorry if this hurts you, but it hurts me too. Perhaps, one day when we are older we can be friends again. Perhaps if you had answer my questions things would be different, because I gave you all my trust and you held back- you held back too much. When I said, I love you, I meant it- you didn’t have to lie.
~mina