Fluf- er Happyness PLEASE (out of timeline)

[lexingtonslaw]

It has been a few hours sense Lex had witnessed B lead L away somewhere. He hadnt objected- because really, what right did he have? L loved B- loved him first, and hadnt seen him in ages. Sure, he really didnt like the fact that they(most likely) had been having séx or some other form of fornification behind his back- but they had a right to. They

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[justiceishot]

(He was coming back from the kitchen, and he was freaking out a little. He didn't know what he would say to Lex, what he was going to do about any of this, and talking to Watari only helped a little. He could feel himself breaking down bit by bit, and if he wasn't careful, he'd lose his mind again.

Pink opens the door to his room, concentrating on taking enough breaths to be alive. He pats at his pocket, reassured that his gift was there still, and looks up. He spots Lex, and he wraps his arms around himself, watching with a bit of a pained look.)

I'm sorry.

[lexingtonslaw]

Hearing the door open, Lex immediately snaps his head towards it. Several hours of stewing had only turned his depressing sour, and so when he saw L enter and spotted the hickey on his neck, he scowls and snaps out.

That mark on your neck says otherwise.

[justiceishot]

(Pink winces horribly, even backing up a step, raising a hand to the mark on his neck. If he'd been about to cry before, it was nothing like now. For a moment, he stares at the floor, shaking slightly, and then he moves forward, toward the loveseat.

He pulls the gift out of his pocket-- a box of cigarettes-- and offers it to Lex. His expression is full of guilt and sadness, and there's even a bit of franticness behind that. If Lex doesn't forgive him, Pink didn't know what he'd do.

... Well, that was a lie. He did know. And it wouldn't please Lex or B.)

I-I'm... s-sorry.

[lexingtonslaw]

The moment the words leave his lips, and the moment he sees L's reaction, Lex cant help but feel slightly pleased. But only for that moment. Because right afterwards, guilt hits him hard across the face and then a kick to the nuts. He knew he was upset- knew he was annoyed. But he neednt take it out on L for gods sake.

But he cant really take it back, nor can he apologize- not yet, anyway. So as L shakily holds out a pack of cigerattes- a peace offering- he feels a spark of relief. However, the bitterness makes him not take them; It was several long, tense moments before he slowly reached out to take the pack, fingers brushing against L's hand as he pulls it back and examines it.

Oh the sweet irony.

...Heh... Flamingo?

[justiceishot]

(He winces at the touch, watching Lex take the pack. He withdraws his hand immediately, and waits. He's in a bit of a fragile mood, right then, and he really has to concentrate on breathing properly.

When Lex speaks, Pink holds himself a little tighter and nods, a half-hearted smile on his face. He's terrified that Lex is going to be pissed at him. )

... Y-yes. I... it was the only kind I could find.

[lexingtonslaw]

He chuckles- feeling a bit more of his bad mood fading to amusement.

Mmn... not only that- but the limited edition 'FLAMING-Flamingo' version~

Lex opens the top, and hits one of the cancer sticks out holding it between two fingers before showing it to L.

...in which they made the stick a light pink and the mouthpiece hot pink.

[justiceishot]

(Despite himself, Pink can't help but snort slightly. He moves a little closer, sitting on the edge of the loveseat, and gives him a bit of a hesitant smile.)

I-is... is that okay? I can go look for different ones, I--

(He bites his lip.)

[lexingtonslaw]

Lifting the cigarette to his mouth, licking the mouth piece a moment before pulling it back and grinning slightly.

Its perfect, L. It reminds me of you.

His free hand goes to his pocket again, only to pause and return empty handed. Leaving the tobacco stick in his mouth, he tilts his head at pink.

..I dont suppose you brought a lighter as well..?

[justiceishot]

Oh, sorry, I-- Yes, I did.

(He reaches into his backpocket and grabs the lighter, which is a dark pink color as well, and flicks it open, lighting the cigarette in Lex's mouth.)

I found them in this room... it was very much like a gay bar.
It was sort of funny.

(He slips onto the couch, bringing his knees to his chest, smiling a little.)

[lexingtonslaw]

He grins a bit more as L lights him up, before taking a long, much needed drag. Instantly he can feel himself calming and becoming rational again- the toxins in the smoke blocking the anxiety and annoyance that had been plaguing him. Of course it was bad for him; he might as well be inhaling exhaust from a truck- but the fact that he could forget that he could look at things calmly and rationally again was worth it. It was something he hadnt had been able to do for quite a while.

Unsure if L disliked the smell or not, Lex makes sure to exhale away from him, lessening the stale smell in his area.

Mmmmnn.... God. You dont know how much I've needed that...

[justiceishot]

(He smiles a little more as well, still feeling timid.)

I-- I know, I remembered, from... from when I was in your body.
I was craving one the entire time.

(He takes a deep breath, and scoots closer to Lex, laying across his lap, and gives him a hopeful look.)

Is everything-- are you... am I--?
... Is it okay if I sit here?

[lexingtonslaw]

Lex hums, lacing his free hand in L's hair while taking another, much briefer, breath of smoke. He remembers that- remembers it well as it was the very first time he had ever experence being on bottom-- even if it was in anothers body.

...I suppose thats just another reason for that to be thankful to that room, mm?

Another breath of smoke leaves his mouth, blown away from him and L and towards the open door. His one hand pets the pink locks fondly while the other holds the burning stick out of his mouth a moment contemplatively.

...I hope so, L. I... really would háte it if it wont.

The cigarette returns to his mouth, a very short drag taken from it.

I- Im not angry at you L... just the situation. Its... difficult to say the least. Im not about to kick you out for something you had no control over... though, I suppose you will have to alternate between B's and my room, hm?

Unintentional as it is, his last sentence was slightly bitter, unable to be held back completely even with the toxins covering his mind. As a slight, silent

[justiceishot]

I... guess so.

(He doesn't mind the smoking at all, honestly. It was something Lex needed, and Pink was willing to give him that, because god knew he owed it to him. A soft contented noise escapes him when Lex starts to pet his hair. He closes his eyes and snuggles closer, curling up on Lex's lap and tangling his hand in Lex's shirt.)

... Still. I'm sorry. I didn't... I don't want to leave you. It doesn't change anything. I still love you. So much.

(His grip tightens a little when he hears the bitter tone. He whispers, pleadingly:)

Please... don't talk like that... I don't think I can handle it right now.

[lexingtonslaw]

A small sigh leaves him as he feels L's grip tighten. Knowing the cigarette wasnt going to help him anymore then it has, he takes one more addicting drag before putting it out on the table next to the love seat, leaving it there to cool. Both hands free now, Lex is able to embrace L against his chest while petting, face nuzzling the top of his head apologetically.

I... im sorry L... I didnt mean to upset you...

[justiceishot]

(He presses closer, and buries his face in Lex's shirt, enjoying the petting.)

It's okay. It isn't your fault that I'm a little unstable.

(He sighs himself, and says simply:)

I don't know what to do, Lex.

[lexingtonslaw]

...Maybe it is.

Lex breaths in L's sent deeply, just wanting to hold and cuddle L this time- nothing more. Besides- he really wasnt found of the though of fonifiction with L so soon after L had done so with B- not with how messed up the situation was already.

Neither do I L... not really.

He plays with the pink strands in his fingers.

...The simplest solution would be to share you... but... that would only work temporally.