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Today was rough. I woke up wide awake at 5:30am - a half hour early - because I couldn't stop my mind from spinning. First thing I thought about was him. More specifically, that his little girl would be about 13 now and wondering if that made him nervous.
Went to my 8 o'clock and didn't really speak to anyone. I just felt like I was too out of it to relate to people today. I was in another completely different world from everyone else. Joe didn't make any effort to talk to me after class. I didn't really care enough to even wonder why. Later I stopped by Chris' office and found out that he knew about what happened between Joe and I two weekends ago. "Wait," I thought. That's not right. And I'm placing my money on Alex as being the person who told him, too. I figured that Alex might find out - his fuckbuddy was the one who caught us - but I didn't bank on his telling a bunch of other people. This means that, in the past 3 days Alex has fucked with me twice. He's getting a phone call tonight. I'm going to rip him a new one.
The rest of the day just slipped by. I usually stay at school after my classes to get work done, but today I just came home to this empty little apartment and slept. Clover slept right next to me as usual and Molly at my feet. There was just too much to deal with emotionally today and I backed out. I just wasn't going to deal with it. And I may not deal with any of it for as long as I can. I'd rather sleep and daydream it all away.
Went to my 8 o'clock and didn't really speak to anyone. I just felt like I was too out of it to relate to people today. I was in another completely different world from everyone else. Joe didn't make any effort to talk to me after class. I didn't really care enough to even wonder why. Later I stopped by Chris' office and found out that he knew about what happened between Joe and I two weekends ago. "Wait," I thought. That's not right. And I'm placing my money on Alex as being the person who told him, too. I figured that Alex might find out - his fuckbuddy was the one who caught us - but I didn't bank on his telling a bunch of other people. This means that, in the past 3 days Alex has fucked with me twice. He's getting a phone call tonight. I'm going to rip him a new one.
The rest of the day just slipped by. I usually stay at school after my classes to get work done, but today I just came home to this empty little apartment and slept. Clover slept right next to me as usual and Molly at my feet. There was just too much to deal with emotionally today and I backed out. I just wasn't going to deal with it. And I may not deal with any of it for as long as I can. I'd rather sleep and daydream it all away.