Until The Day I Die

[lexibaby13]

Im Going outta town Tomorrow...... SNOWBOARDING HERE I COME!! lol im going with my church. we are going to tenn. to see a speaker, here some bands play and go in the snow..... me and Alyssa are going to snowboard..... WE DONT KNOW HOW... dont you wish you could go jus to watch us make fools of ourselves? Well that will be happening a ton this weekend. But HEY if we cant get the hang of it we will ask a hot guy to help us. I miss my hot guy. Ill be okay. I have now decided that i will not be dating again till college.... i have a crush on a FRESHMAN!!!! A FREAKING FRESHMAN!!! WHAT THE CRAP IT MY PROBLEM??? Hes really cool though. i like the kid.....IM NOT TELLING HIM EVER EVER!!! Plus i dont want to date a freshman. I have a crush on my own kind too. His name...... 13-16!! FIGURE IT OUT IF YOU WANT TO KNOW!! it will be and remain my little secret until then. But i still have my little after effects of Mike. I still like him. We are over though which sucks..... I liked him. Im ok though. Ill be okay sooner or later right. I didnt cry though... LIKE I SAID GUYS ARENT NOT WORTH CRYING OVER!!! I CRIED OVER ONE GUY! ONE GUY AND I WILL NEVER EVER EVER DO IT AGAIN!!!! FUCKING EVER! Guys just arent worth it....well most of them. OK NEW SUBJECT!! Im planning on trying out for SOA (aka school of the arts) for next year. Im going to try out for singing and my writings. it will be interesting. I jus really wanna see if i can get it. Screw it if i go or not i wanna see if i can get in to that school. I want to know if my writing is good enough to show to a publisher. Thats another thing im planning on doing. Im going to type up a bunch of my poems and shit and then send them to a publisher and see if i can get published.... GREAT FOR COLLEGE!! I dont know though... everyone tells me they LOVE my writing.... I dont really like it but hey its all good. Hopefully some publisher will like it. CROSS YOUR FINGERS FOR ME PLAESE!!!! Im bored and Im needing to go to alyssa's soon. Cause i have to bring all my clothes for tomorrow to her house and yeah i think im helping her pack... Dunno. hmm ok soo i dont know what to say now. OHH IM NOT GOING TO MILITARY BALL! SCORE!! I didnt wanna go last year it was lame ass and this year it will be too. Everyone gropping eachother. STUPID ROTC KIDS. Ill go get gropped by an actual HOT GUY.....There will be like 2 actual hot guys at military ball...their names i will not give cause one of them has a girlfriend and the other one i dont like him at all i jus think hes really hot!!! But hey i like someone else.... damn freshmen. ok well ill write in this bitch when i get back and tell the 4 people who actually read this how it went.....

Love always,
Your Little Defect

PS....
Jack....DASHBOARD CONFESSIONAL!!!! Ill see your tight ass pants in math class... just you wait.