Bored

[lexibaby13]

Ok im bored so im going to write again. I feel empty. Not over Mike jus casue like life sucks really badly. Militay Ball is coming up and I dont want to go. But my mom thinks im changing. Shes like fisrt you put those big earrings in your ears then you die your hair. next its going to be tattoos and your going to dress in all black. so yeah i will end up having to go. I dont want to take a date.... not that i could get one anyway. Why does she hate me soo much. ok well i dont think she hates me. I have jus kinda had the week from like hell. My dad goes into the hospital and then Mike breaks up with me. I feel empty when i do things. I dont put my heart into anything anymore cause Im sick of being broken down. Im sick of always being thought of last and I dont think it should be that way anymore. I need to find someone who will think of me first. I need to not date again till i go to college. I dont think I will. No one will care really cause i dont need to date anyway. OK and about the whole kissing jarrett thing. I gave him a peck and i dont like him. I jus think hes really awesome. I dont want to date him nor will I ever jus for the plain fact it wouldnt be cool and plus I jus dont like the kid like that. I dont know why wrote that crap. I do have a crush on someone though but I wont ever be acting on the crush jus cause Im sick of being a "girlfriend" right now. *Takes off Michaels watch* I need to give it back to him. I cant think about him. JACK!! MY FAVORITE FRESHMAN! I LOVE YOU KID! gigiti gigiti....RIGHT!!! NASCAR GOLFCARTS!!! SCORE..... I jus want to see them crash once! I still have the picture. Your my hero... REAL MEN WEAR PICK IM TELLING YOU!!!! YOUR SOO A REAL REAL REAL MAN. OK kid i will see you in class and yes you can copy my trends... shirts inside out YOU KNOW HOW WE DO!! LOL... Im kidding and yes i do love you and yeah you know it!! SCORE... ok back to writing about something important... Im now tired and I want to go sleep by myself in a little bed that im almost too tall for..... Mommy im growing up!! yeah im out.

Loving someone,
Your Little Defect