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So I've decided to stop the meds. I'm going to talk to my psychiatrist about it next week, but I'm pretty much certain at this point, that this is what I want to do. I've just reached my limit. The side-effects are just too much, and I can't cope with them anymore. I'm currently taking 9 pills a day, and only 4 of them are Anti-Depressants, the other 5 are all to counter the side-effects of the AD's!
I'm still going to continue with the therapy, which has been the one shining light in all this, because it does seem to work, and my therapist is so amazing, i'm really lucky there. But it says a lot that I'm willing to go through the horror of AD withdrawal, which can last for months, instead of continuing with taking them. I know I'm in for a rough ride, but if I wasn't already crazy, going through a year of taking shit that only makes me feel worse, and doesn't help whatsoever, would've driven me there anyway.
Maybe I'll decide I'm better off on them, but right now, I need a break. I feel like a walking test tube by this point, and nothing is worth feeling like this.
I'm still going to continue with the therapy, which has been the one shining light in all this, because it does seem to work, and my therapist is so amazing, i'm really lucky there. But it says a lot that I'm willing to go through the horror of AD withdrawal, which can last for months, instead of continuing with taking them. I know I'm in for a rough ride, but if I wasn't already crazy, going through a year of taking shit that only makes me feel worse, and doesn't help whatsoever, would've driven me there anyway.
Maybe I'll decide I'm better off on them, but right now, I need a break. I feel like a walking test tube by this point, and nothing is worth feeling like this.