FM November
To build may have to be the slow and laborious task of years. To destroy can be the thoughtless act of a single day. -Sir Winston Churchill
I have worked a long time now on getting rid of the things in my past that I don't want anymore. Being married helps me want to continue that process but the place that I work and the things I'm exposed to pull in the other direction.
Is it simply enough to want to be a good man? Is that enough incentive to overcome the nature that you're born with? It's like swimming upstream where every current is pulling at me and telling me to go the old way. It would be so much easier to follow the water down.
I won't. Not while I have Dawn. She believes in me and for her I will be what I want to be and not what I am.
Do you know what terrifies me though?
If I lost her I know that I would let go in an instant and follow the push of the water. Even knowing that she wouldn't want me to if I didn't have her there I wouldn't care. I'd go down happily and take as many people as I could with me.
How can I feel like that and ever be a good man?
I have worked a long time now on getting rid of the things in my past that I don't want anymore. Being married helps me want to continue that process but the place that I work and the things I'm exposed to pull in the other direction.
Is it simply enough to want to be a good man? Is that enough incentive to overcome the nature that you're born with? It's like swimming upstream where every current is pulling at me and telling me to go the old way. It would be so much easier to follow the water down.
I won't. Not while I have Dawn. She believes in me and for her I will be what I want to be and not what I am.
Do you know what terrifies me though?
If I lost her I know that I would let go in an instant and follow the push of the water. Even knowing that she wouldn't want me to if I didn't have her there I wouldn't care. I'd go down happily and take as many people as I could with me.
How can I feel like that and ever be a good man?