by his own hand Ajax ended himself on hectors sword
Reading Rilke's letters yesterday morning while walking I was touched by his thoughts of the pursuit of loneliness and the riches of difficulty. I spent most of the day shopping in every big box retail store save Walmart. After so many hours under fluorescents and bombarded by hordes of marketing schemes, color coding and product placement I was dizzy and tired. This effect is similar to when walking in the forest one should focus visually on foot placement and glance up only occasionally if one looks at the treetops and only glances to the feet occasionally one will go mad, lost at the least. Today I bought a giant kegerator, wanted one since I was a boy in lederhosen. The rain today made me smile, i guess it was from it being another natural interface in the city besides air. It beckoned me to nap to it's pattering, I dreamed an old friend died. It was troubling, so I went to the club to lose myself in labor. After ten years worth of exposure to lead paint and asbestos in six hours I was spent. It is going to be a hot summer.