Dear Maddie,

[letterstomaddie]

I remember what it felt like to fall in love with you. I remember that moment when suddenly I was still against the chaos of a selfish adolescent psyche, when everything fell away and there you were, just for a moment, brilliant and beautiful. I loved you and that mattered more than anything else about you or me or us. I loved you and everything made sense. And for a moment you were peace in a time of turmoil, and maybe that’s what I’m so desperate to get back to.

Things got a little cloudy after that, but I am certain that I have never known clarity quite so crystallized as that moment when I discovered that I loved you.

Always,

M