So I wrote fic? Smut.

[lettered]

I'm very embarrassed about this. I wrote (Batman) Bruce Wayne/Gordon fanfic, set in Nolan's verse, after The Dark Knight. It's here: Go Your Own Way. It's finished, novella length. Only couple chapters are posted, but updates will be frequent

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[my_daroga]

...ever since femmenerd's Lizard Brain Confessional I've been convinced that my lizard brain is . . . uh, less cerebral than other people's...

You mean less cerebral than other people's who responded to femmenerd's post. And of her flist, the people most likely to respond were the ones who had thought about and could articulate their lizard brains. I hardly think that's a sample size you can draw many conclusions about, however interesting it is.

Will read, and get back to you. I love your irrational ships, dude. I love that you flail so much and do it anyway. And that you're not actually too embarrassed to share them.

BTW, didn't Mr. D (man not dog) say "kink" the other day in reference to some narrative element? Or did I make that up?

[femmenerd]

I can't articulate it well, but I'm amused (or something) about how the organizing principle of me affects things. Also by the fact that the main dirty fics I remember reading as a result of that post were filthy Harry/Draco dirty talking ones linked by Joy.

I've lost the link but a couple years ago there was this ENORMOUS anonymous meme about people sexual secrets and I remember that the main ones were either AMAZINGLY filthy or else that the poster was a virgin. Oh and there were a bunch of elaborate homemade vibrators made out of electric toothbrushes and stuff.

[my_daroga]

I guess all I was trying to say was that I wasn't sure tkp should use that post as a measuring stick for her own cerebrating of sex--which is to say, she has nothing to make excuses for. I didn't respond, because I couldn't articulate it well (or if I did, I'm sure I didn't go too deep). So maybe I'm even less cerebral, and she's missing out on a whole other scale.

Was it this one?

[lettered]

...er, I think we've discussed this before, but the logical knowledge that I'm not worse than anybody else doesn't make me feel...less worse than everybody else. I was trying to make exuses for why I felt embarrassed, not for why the fic is dirty. I know I shouldn't feel embarrassed, probably, but I do.

Yet I post anyway.

There are all sorts of reasons why the people who chose to respond to femme might have had more cerebral responses than I.

Also, I should have said that I feel less cerebral when it comes to porn than my flist, not the whole world.

[my_daroga]

I'm sorry. I probably reiterate things often. I don't think it's unnatural of you to feel embarrassed--notice I don't talk about this stuff very much--or to want to explore/explain why.

It makes me anxious when I feel like you're selling yourself short, even though the fact you're discussing it openly indicates you're not stymied by it and I shouldn't be concerned.

[lettered]

I love you.

I have more to say but I'm at work and off break.

[femmenerd]

Yes, it was totally that one!

And yeah, I really don't think that Joy's lizard brain is all that bizarre - it shares some things in common with mine, I think. I do think that it's, obviously, hard to talk from our lizard brains and so probably a lot of that "thoughtfully articulated" stuff on my journal possibly got (unavoidably) diluted and edited.

[my_daroga]

You should do it again and ask everyone to contribute from their lizard brains and see if all you get are "ughs" and "YES [KINK]."

I'm being flippant, now. I actually need to go back and read both again.

[lettered]

The main thing I remember was stultiloquentia saying, "Really Joy? THAT fic? But it's so repetitive and unoriginal."

Uh . . .

OMG I STILL LOVE THOSE FICS.

how the organizing principle of me affects things.

I'm unsure what you mean...do you mean you posted the lizard brain confessional as a result of your organizing principles?

[femmenerd]

I think it's possible that Stulti (bless her) has an abnormally cerebral lizard brain. Ahem.

And I meant the idea that the fact that it was *me* who posted the lizard brain confessional influenced the kinds of things that were posted. Which is making what my_daroga said way more about me than it actually was.