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Lets see whats new with me....
First the good stuff....
I went to the writer's conference and had an amazing time. Met lots of cool people and had lots of fun.
I sent out two of my books. One got rejected and I'm still waiting to hear back on the other one. It has been awhile so hopefully that is good. My mom says "no news is good news." don't you just love my mommy :P
I got to go to Requiem at Dante's. It was a totally trip. In a good why of course. I went with Mike and Shaun. Met lots of people and danced a lot. It was a blast. I am so going back next month. Which is also only like 3 or 4 days after my birthday. so yay for me. I can finally have a birthday where I can drink.
Now the not so good stuff...
I have been kind of down lately. I have this feeling like everyone is always using me. Like they are only my friends because I will do stuff for them when no one else will. Then when I finally start to say no and put my foot down they disappear. Why is that? I know I can be a bitch sometimes and people take that the wrong way. but god am i really that horrid to be around that they have to cut me out like an unwanted mole. I don't know whats wrong with me. i don't know what i do and I can't seem to fix it.
now before you get "oh poor kristal" on me I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I just wanted to vent a little. so just ignore this section.
To top that my grandmother is very sick and not doing well at all and if that wasn't enough my dad got horrible news from his doctor today. It is very detailed and hard for me explain but they gave him 5 to 10 years and thats with treatment. My life is so crazy. I let myself slip into a depression I can't seem to pull myself out of. I am sleeping all day. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. My tooth hurts like a bitch and my dental doesn't kick in till the first so I just have to just suck it up and deal with it right now and I really don't want to. My tonsils are inflamed and they are telling me I have to have them removed. Boy when it rains it fucking pours. There are only two upsides to this month. One All Hallows Eve and the new Laurell K. Hamilton book.
Well thats all for awhile.
Ok now that I have turned into some whiny black hole of need, I'm going to bed. Hopefully Bast will come to me in my dreams and tell me how to make it better.
First the good stuff....
I went to the writer's conference and had an amazing time. Met lots of cool people and had lots of fun.
I sent out two of my books. One got rejected and I'm still waiting to hear back on the other one. It has been awhile so hopefully that is good. My mom says "no news is good news." don't you just love my mommy :P
I got to go to Requiem at Dante's. It was a totally trip. In a good why of course. I went with Mike and Shaun. Met lots of people and danced a lot. It was a blast. I am so going back next month. Which is also only like 3 or 4 days after my birthday. so yay for me. I can finally have a birthday where I can drink.
Now the not so good stuff...
I have been kind of down lately. I have this feeling like everyone is always using me. Like they are only my friends because I will do stuff for them when no one else will. Then when I finally start to say no and put my foot down they disappear. Why is that? I know I can be a bitch sometimes and people take that the wrong way. but god am i really that horrid to be around that they have to cut me out like an unwanted mole. I don't know whats wrong with me. i don't know what i do and I can't seem to fix it.
now before you get "oh poor kristal" on me I don't want people to feel sorry for me. I just wanted to vent a little. so just ignore this section.
To top that my grandmother is very sick and not doing well at all and if that wasn't enough my dad got horrible news from his doctor today. It is very detailed and hard for me explain but they gave him 5 to 10 years and thats with treatment. My life is so crazy. I let myself slip into a depression I can't seem to pull myself out of. I am sleeping all day. I don't want to do anything or go anywhere. My tooth hurts like a bitch and my dental doesn't kick in till the first so I just have to just suck it up and deal with it right now and I really don't want to. My tonsils are inflamed and they are telling me I have to have them removed. Boy when it rains it fucking pours. There are only two upsides to this month. One All Hallows Eve and the new Laurell K. Hamilton book.
Well thats all for awhile.
Ok now that I have turned into some whiny black hole of need, I'm going to bed. Hopefully Bast will come to me in my dreams and tell me how to make it better.