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I want to binge and purge and binge and purge and binge and purge until I pass out. I want to binge on macaroni and cheese, cake, cake, more cake, cookies, and icecream...I want to purge so fucking bad. I don't even fucking know why. I'm not stressed. I'm not anxious. I physically need to do it. I have to. It's been over a week. It's okay. I can't focus on writing my goddamn personal statement for grad school because of how bad this need to purge is. I can't focus. I NEED to write this essay, therefore I need to purge. Binge and purge. I'd rather not binge, but the craving is so strong and I don't have any food I'd be willing to purge in my house right now. I need it so fucking bad.
I had a kick ass workout at the gym today. That's usually enough.
I need to do this. And I don't know why.
It's been a long time since the physical and mental desperation to do this has been this strong. Usually it's manageable urges, or slip ups. I haven't planned to binge and purge in probably 2 months. I'm desperate.
I'm shaking with the physical need to do this.
I had a kick ass workout at the gym today. That's usually enough.
I need to do this. And I don't know why.
It's been a long time since the physical and mental desperation to do this has been this strong. Usually it's manageable urges, or slip ups. I haven't planned to binge and purge in probably 2 months. I'm desperate.
I'm shaking with the physical need to do this.