So GIVE IT UP. throw your hats in the air.
" But now the future is here and there's no time to worry or be confused. we're just kind of shoved into everything I think. 'Here. take your cap and gown, eat this ice cream, take these finals. recieve college credits, get into college, pack clothes..' It's just a list of things to check off and then TADA you're there. I don't know how to feel. I don't know if I want to go. But I'm pretty sure I don't want to stay."
thank you amanda for always beating me to the best way of saying things.
It makes me sad that they can actually make a board game out of life. and then be completely unoriginal and call it, in fact, LIFE. I don't know how many of you have ever played it, but the entire game is quite comical from my perspective.
FIRST of all, you are born.
girls are the little pink plastic boxes, and boys are the blue ones. WHO decided that those colors universally represent the sex of a person? no clue.
questions like this are not answered in the instructions of LIFE.
ANYWAYS, step one complete. Immediately after your birth, you have to decide if you want to go to college or start a career. WHAT?! EXCUSE ME but when the HELL did the past 18 years of my life JUST NOT COUNT? This is where I realize that the game leaves out a VITAL element- EMOTIONS.
Apparently, these little plastic boxes are completely content in their colorful plastic station wagons, completely unaware that all the turns,plastic hills, and plastic bridges they run over- ALL lead them to the SAME place. the end of the game. which is not death, but RETIREMENT.
The goal is to end up at the Millionare Estates and not the Countryside Acres. That's where playing this games leads you.
Actually, I suppose that isn't the only goal. That isn't how you win at LIFE. The point is, you have to get to there FIRST.
The game of LIFE has made me realize that MY BODY IS JUST A VEHICLE. You never get out of your station wagon the entire game. you spend your ENTIRE life (being that you are born an 18 year old) traveling on this orange road.
There is never a time when you are just enjoying the scenery.
There isn't a stretch in the game where you can just mosey on down the road and NOT have to hit a stop sign,get married, collect children, or buy a house. THERE ARE NO BLANK SQUARES IN LIFE.
you have no say in it. you are FORCED to pay 35,000 dollars to sponsor a golf tournement, 5,000 dollars for day care, or 65,000 dollars to hire a jockey for your race horse- even if those things mean NOTHING to you. Its just the way that damn spinner spun.
You are forced to have these people in your life. and when you hit that spot in the road, you have to share your vehicle with them even if the fact that they have no emotions or faces DRIVES YOU COMPLETELY MAD.
Which leads me to another thing (if you are still even reading), there is no CONTEXT in the game of LIFE. All your life is a sum of events. Everything else is secondary and everything else you are just suppose to imagine. The game of LIFE plays it extremely safe. It doesn't cover beliefs,conversations, or even friendship. All these would cause you to stray from the infinte winding orange road anyway.
I know we all like to think that we are not trapped on that road. atleast, i hope that is true. But this is how I feel about college, I feel like its FORCING me on to that road. and according to the game of LIFE, my next stop is STOP!JOB SEARCH. then after that its STOP!GET MARRIED. Thinking about being thrown into these things makes me sick.
I just want a completely empty path. probably a dark purple one with stars everywhere. I want to paint all the time (even if I can use improvement) and live in a small house out west. I want to completely FLOOD MY SENSES EVERY day. THAT'S all i really want. I want to LOVE something new with all that I have.
and I want it to be completely out of my hands.
So maybe the reason there are no blank squares in life is because that was covered in the 18 years before the game started. and its also coverd in however much time is left after you park your car at a retirement home. OH MY STARS. ITS JUST SO WRONG. please say you agree. I'm so overwhelemed. and I refuse with every tangle of thought, every color that is inside of me, to let my life fall into the hands of a giant,white spinning number wheel. I hope that just because by adult terms I am entering 'life', I don't start to see things differently- like the mountains with Adrian, the way Hertica smirks on the play ground, the way Kate's voice sounds when she reads something out loud, or the way I see the love between Kristyn and Devin and how it makes everything THAT much brighter. I hope I NEVER distort the INTENSITY of Amanda and think that she is just being foolish. These are the things and people that make sense to me NOW. keep it this way katie.
Listen to Give it Up by the format. and start crying.
thank you amanda for always beating me to the best way of saying things.
It makes me sad that they can actually make a board game out of life. and then be completely unoriginal and call it, in fact, LIFE. I don't know how many of you have ever played it, but the entire game is quite comical from my perspective.
FIRST of all, you are born.
girls are the little pink plastic boxes, and boys are the blue ones. WHO decided that those colors universally represent the sex of a person? no clue.
questions like this are not answered in the instructions of LIFE.
ANYWAYS, step one complete. Immediately after your birth, you have to decide if you want to go to college or start a career. WHAT?! EXCUSE ME but when the HELL did the past 18 years of my life JUST NOT COUNT? This is where I realize that the game leaves out a VITAL element- EMOTIONS.
Apparently, these little plastic boxes are completely content in their colorful plastic station wagons, completely unaware that all the turns,plastic hills, and plastic bridges they run over- ALL lead them to the SAME place. the end of the game. which is not death, but RETIREMENT.
The goal is to end up at the Millionare Estates and not the Countryside Acres. That's where playing this games leads you.
Actually, I suppose that isn't the only goal. That isn't how you win at LIFE. The point is, you have to get to there FIRST.
The game of LIFE has made me realize that MY BODY IS JUST A VEHICLE. You never get out of your station wagon the entire game. you spend your ENTIRE life (being that you are born an 18 year old) traveling on this orange road.
There is never a time when you are just enjoying the scenery.
There isn't a stretch in the game where you can just mosey on down the road and NOT have to hit a stop sign,get married, collect children, or buy a house. THERE ARE NO BLANK SQUARES IN LIFE.
you have no say in it. you are FORCED to pay 35,000 dollars to sponsor a golf tournement, 5,000 dollars for day care, or 65,000 dollars to hire a jockey for your race horse- even if those things mean NOTHING to you. Its just the way that damn spinner spun.
You are forced to have these people in your life. and when you hit that spot in the road, you have to share your vehicle with them even if the fact that they have no emotions or faces DRIVES YOU COMPLETELY MAD.
Which leads me to another thing (if you are still even reading), there is no CONTEXT in the game of LIFE. All your life is a sum of events. Everything else is secondary and everything else you are just suppose to imagine. The game of LIFE plays it extremely safe. It doesn't cover beliefs,conversations, or even friendship. All these would cause you to stray from the infinte winding orange road anyway.
I know we all like to think that we are not trapped on that road. atleast, i hope that is true. But this is how I feel about college, I feel like its FORCING me on to that road. and according to the game of LIFE, my next stop is STOP!JOB SEARCH. then after that its STOP!GET MARRIED. Thinking about being thrown into these things makes me sick.
I just want a completely empty path. probably a dark purple one with stars everywhere. I want to paint all the time (even if I can use improvement) and live in a small house out west. I want to completely FLOOD MY SENSES EVERY day. THAT'S all i really want. I want to LOVE something new with all that I have.
and I want it to be completely out of my hands.
So maybe the reason there are no blank squares in life is because that was covered in the 18 years before the game started. and its also coverd in however much time is left after you park your car at a retirement home. OH MY STARS. ITS JUST SO WRONG. please say you agree. I'm so overwhelemed. and I refuse with every tangle of thought, every color that is inside of me, to let my life fall into the hands of a giant,white spinning number wheel. I hope that just because by adult terms I am entering 'life', I don't start to see things differently- like the mountains with Adrian, the way Hertica smirks on the play ground, the way Kate's voice sounds when she reads something out loud, or the way I see the love between Kristyn and Devin and how it makes everything THAT much brighter. I hope I NEVER distort the INTENSITY of Amanda and think that she is just being foolish. These are the things and people that make sense to me NOW. keep it this way katie.
Listen to Give it Up by the format. and start crying.