Lent and stuff
So, so far my Lent seems to be going well, even though it just started. I decided to give up being unhealthy, in all ways possible: physically, mentally, and socially. I decided to eat right, exercise, stop wasting time, work on my self-image and happiness, and reconnect with my friends. I have eaten pretty well today, and in a few hours I'm going to the gym and to "BodyJam" which should be REALLY fun. ("BODYJAM™ is the cardio workout where you are free to enjoy the sensation of dance. An addictive fusion of the latest dance moves and hottest new sounds puts the emphasis as much on having fun as breaking a sweat. Funky instructors teach you to move with attitude through this 55-minute class. So grab a friend, get front and center and get high on the feeling of dance.") And I've been thinking a lot today, about what makes me happy and why perhaps I haven't been very happy. My conclusions: I hate winter, and that's probably a large chunk of why I have been a grump. Also, I feel like I haven't really done anything in months. I like to dooo things. Be outside. Jump around. And most of all I think I miss theater. Sometimes I think I don't push myself hard enough where theater is concerned. I don't always feel challenged, but I think that's mostly my fault. I have had this craving to direct for quite some time now and haven't tried to do anything about it. Partly because I don't know how to get started into it, also because I am afraid to fail. But I think I could do a good job. When I go to plays, I no longer compare my own acting skills, but rather I think "they could have done this better" and "if he would have crossed this way..." and "she needs to watch her body language..." and "that was the wrong emotion there..." I think in general I just need to push myself more. Do more. Try harder.