Dude...completely LAME year
Wow...so it's been quite a while since I've been on this thing, and yeah. I guess I was really bored and I mean I know why I'm bored...plus there's no one in my house for the whole day...haven't really spoken to anyone so I just really need to vent...really I don't have an complaints to/for anyone...what I mean is that I need to actually say something before I go insano in the membrano. I truly believe that this entry has tons to do with my title. There is the mere fact that this year will most probably be too lame and mellow for someone like me. For example I have literally nothing to look foward to. And no, for those of you who think that I'm talking about any specific people, it's not just that. The new guy conducting wind ensemble won't even let the chamber wind people (slacker class) leave 4309..which is pretty gay in my opinion. This is because, well...I won't have much of an eventful day when SOME people try to kick others out of practice rooms because their egos got sooo god damn big! Anyway...like I was saying before - there's nothing to look foward to. I mean, sure, I got out of lame competitions to start my college audition stuff...but as much as music is what I want to do and is the only thing I could ever do, I know myself that my personality extends further than that. I am bored. I have always been this way because I feel for every bad and lame thing that happens (which I know there are people with worse issues so it doesn't happen THAT often to me) that there should be something absolutely awesome that's going to happen. I would kill for that moment, it's like I need a chance of some sort just to get this amazing spontaneous moment dealing with just about anything...it would make things sooo different and really awesome. I know it sounds incredibly vague...hell, I don't know what I want to happen, I just need something to. I would love to say that I want to make this year crazy awesome cause there's nothing there right now...but at the same time, there is a huge difference in the way people act this year...some people are cooler and some just became lamer...in the sense that they got some ego or an attitude of some sort. I believe that it could be the non-chalance that I used to have...and maybe I don't have it as much anymore (psychologically) but I know I would love to have it again...I mean freshman year and the beginning of sophomore year could not have been better...well, just a little bit, but I would love to re-live those times. Well, all I know is as of right now I need and want something to happen...anything, just something.