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I don't know what it is, but this song makes me feel so many things.
I feel sad. I feel overwhelmingly happy, lucky. In love. I feel like I am losing everything. I feel like that's okay. I feel like that's what life is. Having everything and losing it. And then, accepting that. Seeing your past and then all of it's possibilities before you: everything you never got to do. All of the earth you never saw but only imagined. And then, nothingness. It all being gone. Letting go.
I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I think because of a dream I had. The world was ending, and seconds before it did, I realized it. I saw something incredibly beautiful. And I told someone 'I love you.' Time moved slow. I knew they wouldn't hear me. And that was okay because I had felt it. It didn't matter, nothing did. I had done what I could in life. Did what I thought mattered. Felt so strongly about things, about people. That it had to have made some sort of difference for someone. And then I died. I was ok.
Maybe that's what the dream was trying to tell me. That I shouldn't worry so much about life. That in the end, we are insignificant. We don't matter. And that's okay. Our great accomplishments, or those that we think are great, really aren't. We won't be remembered. I feel like what's important is what we get out of life.
Though I can't say I have done anything comparably amazing to anyone else on this earth, I know I have loved very deeply. I appreciate. I see. I sense things around me. I take it all in. I feel it. And when I listen to this song I feel it even more.
Click to viewI feel sad. I feel overwhelmingly happy, lucky. In love. I feel like I am losing everything. I feel like that's okay. I feel like that's what life is. Having everything and losing it. And then, accepting that. Seeing your past and then all of it's possibilities before you: everything you never got to do. All of the earth you never saw but only imagined. And then, nothingness. It all being gone. Letting go.
I've been thinking about death a lot lately. I think because of a dream I had. The world was ending, and seconds before it did, I realized it. I saw something incredibly beautiful. And I told someone 'I love you.' Time moved slow. I knew they wouldn't hear me. And that was okay because I had felt it. It didn't matter, nothing did. I had done what I could in life. Did what I thought mattered. Felt so strongly about things, about people. That it had to have made some sort of difference for someone. And then I died. I was ok.
Maybe that's what the dream was trying to tell me. That I shouldn't worry so much about life. That in the end, we are insignificant. We don't matter. And that's okay. Our great accomplishments, or those that we think are great, really aren't. We won't be remembered. I feel like what's important is what we get out of life.
Though I can't say I have done anything comparably amazing to anyone else on this earth, I know I have loved very deeply. I appreciate. I see. I sense things around me. I take it all in. I feel it. And when I listen to this song I feel it even more.