Aug 12, 2010 12:35
Last night I was interventioned by my roommate and a friend from work about Nic. I explained everything that had been going on since we started hanging out again, and assured them that I was being super cautious. They kept telling me that they didn't want me to get hurt again, and I thanked them. That makes a whole bunch of you that really do give a shit. <3 <3 Not that I ever doubted, it's just nice being reminded.
I went over to Nic's after the intervention (roffle. We'd already made plans to hang out), and told him why it took me a little longer to get over there. We had a really good talk about why everyone's not pulling for him this time, and he said "they have every right to hate me". We talked more about the commitment issue, and I learned that I upset Nic in Mexico. I kiiiinda remember, but he did say that I apologized immediately the next day when we got up so that's good. Then he told me that he made a mistake breaking up with me. He's not sure why he freaked out, but for a while there he felt like he was losing his mind. He hasn't explained on that any further, and from the look on his face when I say, "you keep say that you were losing your mind. What does that mean?" he has no clue how to put it in to words yet.
We're at 200% more communication from Round 2, which was 200% above Round 1, so if anything, I'm really glad he's learning to talk about his feelings.
So he's 100% positive that he wants to get back together. "I shouldn't have ended it at all."
Lots of thinking to do.