New Year but...about last week
Wednesday my morning started out well. I was preparing to go to work before 9am and took a break to greet some people I hang out with on various discord servers. One server channel mentioned something about a need for one more participant for a murder mystery game to be streamed to Twitch.tv. I felt that maybe this was my chance to finally do something acting related so I contacted our mutual who was putting on the show and she said I could join!
As I was working I saw s news notification about the election in terms of Congress confirming the electoral votes and a Trump rally that was also occurring. I honestly wasn't thinking much about the later but it became apparent that it wasn't going to be the usual rally.
After receiving the news notification about those who participated in the rally were now trying to get into the Capitol building, I became concerned and went to Twitter on one screen and a news livestream on another screen. I was horrified to witness the Insurrection of the Capitol. Like many I too just couldn't keep my eyes off the screens, the videos, the text posts, the live streams. I can't fathom what it was like for those who were terrorized during that event. I can't imagine how much trauma they are going through.
I don't even understand myself, it felt like I was on autopilot for the next 48 hours trying to figure out the various timelines and also trying to "work". I also felt concerned as I am aware that unfortunately there are plenty in my area who probably attended if not supported what occurred.
I know we as a country are not out of the woods yet with potential similar attacks planned for the week of the inauguration. I hope that it does not happen.
Saturday morning, I decided to be productive and got up early enough to set up my background and lights prior to the start of the murder mystery show.
It was revealed during the performance that not only does my character share the same occupation I do in real life; but also aspired to become an actor in Hollywood and Broadway. I didn't tell the person who was hosting the event about my life like that. So it makes for a funny coincidence or perhaps it was fate?
That was my first performance since I said I wanted to pursue acting. That show helped me release some pent up energy. I realized that this is indeed a healthy non-destructive way of coping.