A shitty monologue, forgive me
A Question of Uncertainty
Alex: What to do? I mean, it isn’t just something to say as a simple statement. You don’t just assert it. Nor can you really get away with placing it on the table [gestures to an imaginary table] and then just walk away. No. No, I don’t think it works just quite like that at all. I am quite certain it isn’t at least. [shakes head] This isn’t helping much at all. Its more of a derailment. More of a sidestep. But then again, I have be just great at skirting this issue for quite a few years now; haven’t I?
I mean, if it was easy, I would have just went and said to them by now. Mom [looks to the left] Dad [looks to the right], I have something to tell you. I am a transsexual. [shocked expression] Oh!, you will accept me no matter what? Gee!, thanks! [hugs the air] That be swell. Yeah, but gathered data says otherwise. There is no precedence for them to respond otherwise.
There should some sort of manual for this. You know, like an Idiot’s Guide to Coming Out to Socially Repressed Parents. [chuckles] It isn’t like being transsexual is the end of the world. Not like I have decided to join a suicide cult. Now, there is a novel idea. Rather, at least one to cause concern. But somehow, I could see my parents agreeing with the decision. Well, not the suicide portion. They’d be happy I was conforming to some sort of herd.
Heh, following a herd. That sounds a little laughable. Don’t get me wrong. There is nothing wrong with being a productive member of society. I just don’t get how being happy while doing it makes me a deviant? I mean, I just don’t get how transitioning hurts anyone.
I need to get back on point. How to come out to them. I could just cop out. I could skillfully craft a letter. Just hand it to them. And wait for them for to read it. That could work. It keeps me from having to build up the actual courage to say those words. [screams] No that wouldn’t make a point. It wouldn’t mean anything. The effort would be for not without a vocal confrontation. Otherwise, it is pointless. It is cheating. And I won’t be cheated out of my acceptance.