Bats are so noisy when it’s their bedtime
I can’t say this to you because you will turn it around on me and make it into nothing but I need to say it so that it is said.
You were shit to me Aidan.
You can’t claim to not know there were emotions. “After all our talks” that’s what you said. You KNEW. You can’t claim you didn’t know that this was more then just casual sex
Even the sex. Was not casual. There is nothing casual about that level of staring into each other’s eyes. That’s not a thing that just happens. “Things just don’t happen Renee” that’s what you said and I agree. Things don’t just happen.
I agree that I’m not in love with you
(ALSO. ALSO. the motherfucking NERVE to tell me you know my own feelings better then I do. The MOTHER FUCKING NERVE. WHAT THE FUCK. who does that? What level of arrogance is this? I cannot. I really really can’t)
I also really don’t think you’re in love with me.
But the fact that you constantly say that this is nothing. We wouldn’t have had to have had all the conversations we’ve had about “lines” if this was nothing. I’ve done nothing. This isn’t it.
I think you’re in denial about your own emotions. I don’t think that this is in any way romantic. But I don’t think it’s just sexual either unless sexual is a deeper emotion than I was previously aware.
The issue is that you’re only seeing those 2 options. I feel like you would call me immature and say I was acting like a high schooler. But there’s more then that to life. There are deeper and more varied emotions then that.
I feel like what we had could have been perfect for me. Could have been forever for me. Just what we had. All you had to do was motherfucking acknowledge it. And not belittle me and make me feel like shit.