THE WAY I FEEL.
I FEEL SO BEAT UP AT THE MOMENT. WORK HAS KICKED MY ASS. STANDING ON TWO FEET FOR 7 HOURS NOT STOP IS CRAZY. MY LEGS ARE KILLING ME AND I GOT TO WORK AT 4PM TODAY. I'M KIND OF EXCITED ABOUT STARTING SCHOOL TOMMORROW. THAT GOING TO BANANAS BECAUSE I'M GOING TO BE ALL BY MYSELF AND MY FRIEND FOR NEWWORLD WON'T BE THERE I KNOW I'LL BE FINE. I FEEL SAD BUT ITS WHAT I HAD TO DO FOR MYSELF AND IT GOING TO HUMBLE ME BECAUSE I FINALLY OWNED UP TO MY DECISION IN LIFE. I DID WHAT LEMUEL WANTED AND I'M HAPPY I DID. PRAY FOR ME. EVERYONE NEEDS PRAY. I SORRY IF I HURT ANY OF MY FRIENDS FEELINGS BUT IT'S NOT BECAUSE DON'T LOVE ITS BECAUSE I'M FREAKING TIRED AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE GOTTEN DRUCK AND FREAKING HIGH LAST SATURDAY BECAUSE I WOULD OF BEEN RIGHT AT YOUR SIDE. I SMOKED TWO JOINTS, ONE BLUNT, AND A DUTCH. YOU KNOW WE PASSED IT AROUND BUT I FUCKING DRANK TOO. SHAME ON ME BUT I WAS CLEAN FOR FOUR MONTHS AND I HAD A RELAPS. I STILL DRAINED FOR THAT. NEXT TIME I'M JUST GOING TO CHILL OUT WITH THAT. I'M NOT GETTING YOUNGER...ACTUALLY I'M GETTING OLDER AND WISER. I GUESS I WAS WISE LAST SATURDAY. I ACTUALLY LOOK FORWARD TO THIS CHECK FOR WORK...IT'S COMING NEXT WEEK. YEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. NEW SHOES BABY AND PAY MY CELL PHONE TO GET BACK ON AND HELP MY PARENTS WITH THE LIGHT BILL.