not that any of you will read this but....
I fucked up and i`m sorry. I didn`t think about you guys when I made my decisions, but if I had I wouldn`t have made the right ones. This is what I need to do, be on my own and work and do things for myself. By staying here at school I wouldn`t be helping myself at all, and yes this decision screwed up the housing plan we had for next year. But shit like this happens! And I`m sorry I haven`t been the greatest friend to any of you latley, I`ve gotten caught up in my own world of drama and i`ve put you guys out of the picture. I can`t say i`m sorry enough, but if your not even willing to talk to me about this then I don`t know what to tell you. I know you hold grudges, I should have thought about this all before, but I didn`t because none of this really had a whole lot to do with you. I still love you guys, we had alot of fun and I want to fix this all and be friends again, but that requires you givning me a second chance and I know you don`t give those very often. I wish you would have talked to me or told me about all this before it got out of hand, tell me when i`m pissing you off b/c i`m not a mind reader and i`m not aware of what i do half the time. if your not going to forgive me let me know that too.