The seventh year hitch
Just when I thought I'm past the habit of making anniversary posts because I've ran out of ideas to write, and tbh my yearly contents were all the same, my 7th year in the fandom is the obvious oddity. Even last year's start of fangirling over Panic! At The Disco pales to how shook my emotions are this year. (And did you know that Western Pop music ( Read more... )
NEWS was the first group I started liking, the first one that made me feel like a fan and it all started with Tegoshi. Before being in a fandom, I was a very skeptical person (I still am tbh) who judged all those fangirls that become blind to whatever their idol does, don't matter if it was good or bad thing (by bad I mean disrespectful or irresponsible to other people), so my biggest fear was to turn out like one of them. That's why if Tegoshi does something I don't agree, I'll be the first one to scold him (as I did with some of his controversies and scandals).
As you mentioned, he is full of potential, but we can't tell for sure how he is going to use that, he does have a free spirited personality. But one thing I've noticed just when he was approaching his thirties is that he is not so impulsive as I thought (or he matured more than I've noticed on the past years). Through some of his actions, (like you said, the willing to explain things) he tries to convey what is happening with him, so I can tell there is much more than he let appear, although it can take time for him to show.
In the end, what I tell myself is that being his fan is facing this duality all the time. Knowing you are dealing with someone who can be spontenous like a kid, but who thinks deeper than he let people see. Tego doesn't suprise me anymore, but I'm slowly trying to give him some credit as time passes. Everyone has you own pace when it comes to mature and until now he hasn't done anything that makes me be totally turned off by him (we still come back to him in the end, right?). However, I'll keep my words: I'll be the first to scold him if he does something I don't agree. And I'll leave him to his own luck if it's the case. It's not a matter of trust (his private life just concerns him), but it's a matter of resposability and showing maturity when the circunstances ask for that. I hope he had learned with his past experiences. I don't think idols need to be perfect, but they should be role models when it comes to seeking personal development and inspiring other people with that.
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I was never expecting anyone to wholeheartedly agree with my sentiments, to be honest. Even some fans who have been vocal about "dissing" Tegoshi, sided by him when those issues arose.
I can't add anything to your comment, really~ I think it's complete and perfect. I scold Tegoshi too! Even until now, after all that has happened, I get pissed off with some of his quips. Unlike you though, I still can't see the maturity or maybe I am expecting a huge shift but it doesn't really matter as much as his happiness and well-being matters.
That duality you mentioned, no one could've worded it better! Thanks again for the comment, for taking the time reading this long and old post xD
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