Here comes the sun

[leisureanimal]

don't you worry, readers
although every outpouring of support reminds me
that yes, words are worth careful consideration
I am actually doing quite marvelously indeed

here is what happened to me:
the universe reiterated over and over
that good overcomes evil when I am dedicated to goodness
and I overcome my anxieties when I am dedicated to myself
but I completely forgot this for a short span of time
ran around in circles without understanding
that the center of the circle doesen't move
if I don't move either

so this is what I am thankful for:
the garden behind the apartment complex on fifteenth avenue
where I suddenly snapped to my senses
the bakery with the dougnut sale and the tulips
I picked as I trudged back to myself
Sunny windows with skylines visible
and the gentleman with pillow lines visible on his face
who holds me on the loveseat and whispers encouragement in my ear
returning to Olympia and being greeted with petunias and
friends shouting my name
and feeling my heart tap tapping out a beat for my footsteps
to get back home

lately, I've sung PJ Harvey poorly in karaeoke
thought about doing hot yoga and chose to spend money wisely instead
anxiously awaited the return of beloved friends
having wondrous fun times out on the town
being far too busy with school and work and
writing, for pay, wonder of wonders
not sleeping in my bed very often at all
staving off freakouts with yoga and cigarettes
overcoming boredom and my own brain chemistry
and overcoming it all very well indeed