i am loved
so last nite mike and brian came over, and we all went to hot rod haven which is basically this psychotically curvy road and there's this story that i think is an urban legend but misty swears is real about satan worshipers who hang out in this grave yard that is like right off of hod rod haven, and supposedly they attack cars and sacrifice the people in the cars to satan. well i scared the piss outta misty and she wasn't too happy but i thought it was funny, she was screaming like some one was trying to kill her.
we had to drive over to misty's house and i said i wanted to go to the park, so mike told misty and brian that we were going swinging, i asked him how he knew i wanted to swing and he used this old country saying it was like "i didn't fall off of the turnip truck yesterday" it was so cute, i was like aww my baby is a lil country boy!!! then he started talking about how he used to go to partys, to have fun and stuff and he tod me that he didn't party anymore, b/c he would always rather be with me and being with me was more fun anyways.
then when we got back it was just me and him in his car and he kissed me and said that it was official, he loved being with me, and i was like awww. then we talked for a while and he told me that he thought he was in love with me and that the whole concept of love scared him, b/c he didn't think he could ever feel this way again, and i told him that after what justin put me through i didn't think i wanted to feel this way again. i dunno to me being in love makes me feel vulernable and i told him that, he kissed me and told me that he would never hurt me. looking into his eyes i couldn't help but to believe him, so i told him that i loved him, and the look on his face melted my heart, kinda half smiled and said he loved me too, man i couldn't breathe, i was shaking. i couldn't believe he said it b/c about a year or so ago, he told me that to him time has shown that love isn't real.
later that nite we were outside and he asked me what i was thinking and i told him that i was thinking that i'd be lost without him and he told me that i'd never be lost if he could help it. i told him that i was amazed that he was standing there holding me, loving me. and he told me that he wasn't going anywhere and i was soooo happy. i am so in love with this boy, i don't think i could ever be happier. well that's all for now TTYL<3
<3 alwayz leighann
we had to drive over to misty's house and i said i wanted to go to the park, so mike told misty and brian that we were going swinging, i asked him how he knew i wanted to swing and he used this old country saying it was like "i didn't fall off of the turnip truck yesterday" it was so cute, i was like aww my baby is a lil country boy!!! then he started talking about how he used to go to partys, to have fun and stuff and he tod me that he didn't party anymore, b/c he would always rather be with me and being with me was more fun anyways.
then when we got back it was just me and him in his car and he kissed me and said that it was official, he loved being with me, and i was like awww. then we talked for a while and he told me that he thought he was in love with me and that the whole concept of love scared him, b/c he didn't think he could ever feel this way again, and i told him that after what justin put me through i didn't think i wanted to feel this way again. i dunno to me being in love makes me feel vulernable and i told him that, he kissed me and told me that he would never hurt me. looking into his eyes i couldn't help but to believe him, so i told him that i loved him, and the look on his face melted my heart, kinda half smiled and said he loved me too, man i couldn't breathe, i was shaking. i couldn't believe he said it b/c about a year or so ago, he told me that to him time has shown that love isn't real.
later that nite we were outside and he asked me what i was thinking and i told him that i was thinking that i'd be lost without him and he told me that i'd never be lost if he could help it. i told him that i was amazed that he was standing there holding me, loving me. and he told me that he wasn't going anywhere and i was soooo happy. i am so in love with this boy, i don't think i could ever be happier. well that's all for now TTYL<3
<3 alwayz leighann