sometimes i wonder

[leighluvzyou]

wednesday night mike and brian came over, and stayed super late b/c they didn't think that they had to work, and then mike got called in to work, i bet that sucked. something is going on with him and his mom, but i don't know what b/c he wouldn't talk to me about, he just said he would have to do something drastic, which worries me b/c drastic to him is REALLY MAJOR for everyone else. i am so happy just being with him, he's soooo sweet, i told him (again) that i didn't want him to go into the army b/c i was scared to lose him, and he just held me close and told me that everything would be ok. i think i'm falling in love with this kid, man you just don't know.lol. my friend david is making the biggest mistake of his LIFE he asked some hoe to marry him and i kno it's a mistake and i told him and he told me to give him one good reason not to marry her, and i told him that i knew he didn't want to, or he wouldn't be looking for excuses from me. he told me to tell him that i was still in love with him, and that i wanted to be with him, and some other stuff, and i told him that i was happy with how my life is right now, and that i care about mike far too much to ever think about hurting him in anyway. david got mad at me and he won't talk to me, he's dissapeared, no one has seen him since sunday. he makes me so angry. i talked to justin last night, he's moving to georgia soon and we said our good-byes, it was sad b/c he was mad at me, and i was practically in tears b/c he was telling me how he don't believe i ever really loved him, and he said i was a mean person, and he hates me and doesn't want to talk to me ever again, and a bunch of other really mean stuff. i trusted with stuff that he turned around and used against me. i want to tell mike but mike don't like him in the first place, so i'm thinking that would cause alot of trouble, that would only make things worse. but i dunno i guess i'll have to believe that things will get better. i'm sad b/c mike has to work all weekend, so i probably won't get to see him much if i get to see him at all. well, that's all for now. TTYL<3

<3 alwayz Leighann