i feel so blue.
feels like im currently sitting in a puddle of water. in my own tears.
nah, won't cry that much tears.
but tears are flowing down uncontrollably. -.-
the sick part one big issue.
and last night how i debated with sis about none giving me items.
then how much shit i went through everyday when my mom scolded me for nothing when she was working back then when my sister was in texas.
yes she went through the tough part of living alone and such.
but i went through the daily got scolded for nothing for half a year. -.-
luckily i saved myself by jetting over to tw.
-.-
:'(
then what! saw her ironing my sister's clothes.
and what!
for the 2 years in ite, i ironed my own clothes. :'(
then what else.
i hate comparing but why isit that humans tend to compare so much.
and then what!
._.
so mom was like: if i was to compare like you, i'd be shit sad what what what.
-.-
I AM NOT COMPARING IM JUST STATING FACTS TO TELL YOU WHAT I FEEL.
IM NOT SAYING THAT YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT NOW OR WHAT NOW.
I CAN JOLLY WELL STILL IRON MY OWN CLOTHES.
SO YES WHEN SHE PAID SIS AIR TICS, i was like oh yeah pay mine too.
hell, she did. and yes. what the !?! i booked jetstar yo.
i should have booked sq!
-.-
:"(
it's funny how much cold blooded i am when it comes to things that link with my idols.
i don't cry when they say oh xxx is gonna disband. oh xxx is whatever.
but i cry like mad when i think about family stuff or my own things. fine im self centred. better than a faker you.
-.-
(im not stating about anything or anyone in particular but some people think im cold blooded in that way. be it or what!)
not like im here for you to judge me.
anyway this is just a ranting entry.
i never fail to make myself happy the next moment. even though just an hour ago, i was tearing or in full bad mood.
cos i know where to find my happiness.
glad for me.
:)
ok shall just watch super junior videos now.
and study or revise and memorise scripts & stuffs later at night.
:'(
ahahahaha if i would like you to pity me.
yes im crying a tad badly now. -.-
ok but i stopped at this very second.
on a lighter note: my yes asia items are all here! shall open and see if they have the folders as promised.
-.-
yes i finally find it so great being older and there is spending power.
and no, am not gonna apply for any job anyhow till my health exceeds my expectations, then i would. :)
i know myself best. ♥
actually i wonder how many silent readers i have or any readers i have. hello. :)
you can comment,
and if you are down, you can come to me.
i think i'm a good listener to a certain extent.
unless i think you're in the wrong then i'd tell you slowly.
but, if you are right, i'd stand in your position and shoot whoever you wanna shoot first for fun. and that makes you happy i know right.
ok byebyez.
-.-
i earn my own money and get my own things.
or i'd earn more in future to pay back.
why even bother.
and am not comparing i insist. i was stating facts about unfairness. -.-
and so, i will only yeah take it and sour you back.
since you parents love to remember about past and sour me.
so why can't i do the same when you do it that way.
:P
(you see how i can go about a sad entry and end up being overly overjoyed of how i'm gonna solve this issue. i feel im scary right now.)
and for friends who think the koreans aren't very amazing or what. you should just watch any live video of super junior. then you'd get convinced. :x
nah, won't cry that much tears.
but tears are flowing down uncontrollably. -.-
the sick part one big issue.
and last night how i debated with sis about none giving me items.
then how much shit i went through everyday when my mom scolded me for nothing when she was working back then when my sister was in texas.
yes she went through the tough part of living alone and such.
but i went through the daily got scolded for nothing for half a year. -.-
luckily i saved myself by jetting over to tw.
-.-
:'(
then what! saw her ironing my sister's clothes.
and what!
for the 2 years in ite, i ironed my own clothes. :'(
then what else.
i hate comparing but why isit that humans tend to compare so much.
and then what!
._.
so mom was like: if i was to compare like you, i'd be shit sad what what what.
-.-
I AM NOT COMPARING IM JUST STATING FACTS TO TELL YOU WHAT I FEEL.
IM NOT SAYING THAT YOU HAVE TO DO WHAT NOW OR WHAT NOW.
I CAN JOLLY WELL STILL IRON MY OWN CLOTHES.
SO YES WHEN SHE PAID SIS AIR TICS, i was like oh yeah pay mine too.
hell, she did. and yes. what the !?! i booked jetstar yo.
i should have booked sq!
-.-
:"(
it's funny how much cold blooded i am when it comes to things that link with my idols.
i don't cry when they say oh xxx is gonna disband. oh xxx is whatever.
but i cry like mad when i think about family stuff or my own things. fine im self centred. better than a faker you.
-.-
(im not stating about anything or anyone in particular but some people think im cold blooded in that way. be it or what!)
not like im here for you to judge me.
anyway this is just a ranting entry.
i never fail to make myself happy the next moment. even though just an hour ago, i was tearing or in full bad mood.
cos i know where to find my happiness.
glad for me.
:)
ok shall just watch super junior videos now.
and study or revise and memorise scripts & stuffs later at night.
:'(
ahahahaha if i would like you to pity me.
yes im crying a tad badly now. -.-
ok but i stopped at this very second.
on a lighter note: my yes asia items are all here! shall open and see if they have the folders as promised.
-.-
yes i finally find it so great being older and there is spending power.
and no, am not gonna apply for any job anyhow till my health exceeds my expectations, then i would. :)
i know myself best. ♥
actually i wonder how many silent readers i have or any readers i have. hello. :)
you can comment,
and if you are down, you can come to me.
i think i'm a good listener to a certain extent.
unless i think you're in the wrong then i'd tell you slowly.
but, if you are right, i'd stand in your position and shoot whoever you wanna shoot first for fun. and that makes you happy i know right.
ok byebyez.
-.-
i earn my own money and get my own things.
or i'd earn more in future to pay back.
why even bother.
and am not comparing i insist. i was stating facts about unfairness. -.-
and so, i will only yeah take it and sour you back.
since you parents love to remember about past and sour me.
so why can't i do the same when you do it that way.
:P
(you see how i can go about a sad entry and end up being overly overjoyed of how i'm gonna solve this issue. i feel im scary right now.)
and for friends who think the koreans aren't very amazing or what. you should just watch any live video of super junior. then you'd get convinced. :x