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The more I put off blogging, the more there is to say and the less I want to type it all out. Blargh my damn procrastination.
Starting Thursday, there was Thanksgiving. It's usually my favorite holiday but my aunt showed up pilled up and was being a stupid idiot. I dealt with her and once she left, I went to the refrigerator, got out the oreo pie I had been hiding, walked into the living room where people were and said "You know what I'm thankful for? I'm thankful that she's gone! Anyone want some Oreo pie?" Yes, that might seem very mean but damn it....I don't want to feel like I can't say or do anything right because the stoned woman is bitching.
Michelle and Coor had me in IMs and convinced me to come over that night. It was about 9 that I got to Michelles and I am so glad I went. We did lots of pictures and goofed off. I'll post the pictures sometime soon. It was much needed.
I can't really go very far until I know everything is cool with my mom in case she needs me to take her anywhere since she can't drive so that was almost like a mini-vacation from everything.
Thursday night I had a very weird dream that I was at home and where my mom lives (next door) was the Blue Cats building but it was a hospital. My Papaw W. was in the hospital and my Papaw B. was sitting on a bench next to me telling me he was going to be ok. My Papaw W. ended up dying in the dream and it freaked me out and I went around screaming at everyone. The weirdest part of this dream is that in real life, my Papaw B. is the one who is dead (almost 2 years now) and my Papaw W. is alive.
So on Friday I am telling everyone about my weird dream and when I am getting ready for coffee, my Granny W. comes in and says "your dream could have come true tonight" and I just look at her. She explains that Papaw W. had a wreck...he's ok, he was already back actually. He just ran off into the median. No scrapes or bruises. I started bawling though. It just freaked me out.
Went to coffee, heard Ben do his speeches...well, I made it for the second one. It was very good! After coffee, there were several things I wanted to do but first I wanted food....a bunch of us went to IHOP and while we were there, "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down came on. When my friend Brent went into the Army, and moreso when he went to Iraq, this song always made me think of him. I sat at the table and just got distant from everyone and started to cry a little. I told everyone why, it was just me being reminded of my friend. Well, I ended up not going anywhere else (sorry everyone who invited me to different places, I just got tired pretty quickly) and came home to go to sleep.
On Saturday morning (or I guess more like noon), my Granny W. says that I have a visitor and she doesn't (or won't) say who. I get up and get some real clothes on since my mind is running through all possibilities of who it could be. Well, I turn the corner and there stands Brent. I half scream since I could barely get it out. It was just weird because I was just thinking about him when that song played the night before. Ended up spending Saturday with him, his wife, Melanie, Stacy, and her husband Jason. I don't get to see Brent much at all....he's still stationed at Ft. Polk. Unless his Med. Board comes thru, it might be even less after the beginning of the year when he will be going to TX. :( I hope his Med. Board comes thru though...he has so many things wrong with him both physically and mentally after the blast he was hurt in over in Iraq. *praying hard for his Med. Board*
Sunday, I did a lot of cleaning and took care of a few things. Also dyed my hair black...was nervous about this because I've always done lighter browns or dark reds like burgundy but I like it. It's different for me.
I went to Sanctus....there weren't many people there but there were some good people there. It was nice to visit with them. After Sanctus, I had to come home since I knew I had to get up this morning to get my baby sister on her bus and off to school.
Once I got her off to school, I came back in my room and went back to sleep. Now I'm awake again and I have finally updated.
So, there's the last 4 days in a nutshell.
Starting Thursday, there was Thanksgiving. It's usually my favorite holiday but my aunt showed up pilled up and was being a stupid idiot. I dealt with her and once she left, I went to the refrigerator, got out the oreo pie I had been hiding, walked into the living room where people were and said "You know what I'm thankful for? I'm thankful that she's gone! Anyone want some Oreo pie?" Yes, that might seem very mean but damn it....I don't want to feel like I can't say or do anything right because the stoned woman is bitching.
Michelle and Coor had me in IMs and convinced me to come over that night. It was about 9 that I got to Michelles and I am so glad I went. We did lots of pictures and goofed off. I'll post the pictures sometime soon. It was much needed.
I can't really go very far until I know everything is cool with my mom in case she needs me to take her anywhere since she can't drive so that was almost like a mini-vacation from everything.
Thursday night I had a very weird dream that I was at home and where my mom lives (next door) was the Blue Cats building but it was a hospital. My Papaw W. was in the hospital and my Papaw B. was sitting on a bench next to me telling me he was going to be ok. My Papaw W. ended up dying in the dream and it freaked me out and I went around screaming at everyone. The weirdest part of this dream is that in real life, my Papaw B. is the one who is dead (almost 2 years now) and my Papaw W. is alive.
So on Friday I am telling everyone about my weird dream and when I am getting ready for coffee, my Granny W. comes in and says "your dream could have come true tonight" and I just look at her. She explains that Papaw W. had a wreck...he's ok, he was already back actually. He just ran off into the median. No scrapes or bruises. I started bawling though. It just freaked me out.
Went to coffee, heard Ben do his speeches...well, I made it for the second one. It was very good! After coffee, there were several things I wanted to do but first I wanted food....a bunch of us went to IHOP and while we were there, "Here Without You" by 3 Doors Down came on. When my friend Brent went into the Army, and moreso when he went to Iraq, this song always made me think of him. I sat at the table and just got distant from everyone and started to cry a little. I told everyone why, it was just me being reminded of my friend. Well, I ended up not going anywhere else (sorry everyone who invited me to different places, I just got tired pretty quickly) and came home to go to sleep.
On Saturday morning (or I guess more like noon), my Granny W. says that I have a visitor and she doesn't (or won't) say who. I get up and get some real clothes on since my mind is running through all possibilities of who it could be. Well, I turn the corner and there stands Brent. I half scream since I could barely get it out. It was just weird because I was just thinking about him when that song played the night before. Ended up spending Saturday with him, his wife, Melanie, Stacy, and her husband Jason. I don't get to see Brent much at all....he's still stationed at Ft. Polk. Unless his Med. Board comes thru, it might be even less after the beginning of the year when he will be going to TX. :( I hope his Med. Board comes thru though...he has so many things wrong with him both physically and mentally after the blast he was hurt in over in Iraq. *praying hard for his Med. Board*
Sunday, I did a lot of cleaning and took care of a few things. Also dyed my hair black...was nervous about this because I've always done lighter browns or dark reds like burgundy but I like it. It's different for me.
I went to Sanctus....there weren't many people there but there were some good people there. It was nice to visit with them. After Sanctus, I had to come home since I knew I had to get up this morning to get my baby sister on her bus and off to school.
Once I got her off to school, I came back in my room and went back to sleep. Now I'm awake again and I have finally updated.
So, there's the last 4 days in a nutshell.