Kickball
By some grace of God or the a large Venti Coffee I managed to pull a 93, yes a 93 on my Physics Exam!!! That pulled my average to a B, which really is a miracle considering we've had a teacher for 3 weeks of the past semester. Whew, I'm glad that's over. Now I'm free of high school science and math for the rest of my life. Weird feeling. I won't ever have to use my beloved TI-89 again.
Nationals are this weekend and I am not excited. Maybe I will be when I get there, and thank goodness Pouille will be there. But really, I don't feel prepared. It's summer but doesn't feel like it beasue I have all this other work to do. My summer starts on Sunday. I can't wait. Ahh...
Yesterday was cool. Finished up early and had a voice mail waiting for me. Coffee with Kelsey then playground with Alex. I've figured it out, figured out what makes my realtionships hard and why I do certain things. I don't want to get stuck in this pattern because then I may never come out of it. He's been good for me. This is what I need. Sometimes it is hard to not freak out about things, but in reality, this is good. What we both need. Seperate friends, seperate lives. Although I loved every minute of it, serperate names as well. it is nice to hear him talk about his parents and me, oh and her.
Almost eleven months. That's hard to believe. That started a major change in my life. Not just the end of one thing, but the beginning of a time where I truly was able to work things out. There's not a day that goes by that I don't remember. Finally, I can talk without crying, yelling or moping around for days. I'm rationalizing which is working. Because I know why, after that, you jsut do. I still cry when I hear that song. Seeing pictures creates the same emotions. It's weird though, now I think back and sometimes I can't remember. I mean, I can because I'll never forget but i can't remember being with him. But i can still feel the warmth of his skin. I gave him the most emotions and he did the same. I just wish I didn't hurt him.
Next year should be fun, I'm really exciting. Amazing schedule, SGA President with two projects already in place, Senior!, and driving through the sunset.
"I might not get in but Meghan's my best friend so I'll be there anyway." That made me smile.
"Hello, Sunshine!"
"I want Meghan time, too."
Being there means leaving here
Saying yes means saying no
Moving on means letting go of all that is sure
Sing a new song
I might have a new song, but the bridge will always be the same.
Nationals are this weekend and I am not excited. Maybe I will be when I get there, and thank goodness Pouille will be there. But really, I don't feel prepared. It's summer but doesn't feel like it beasue I have all this other work to do. My summer starts on Sunday. I can't wait. Ahh...
Yesterday was cool. Finished up early and had a voice mail waiting for me. Coffee with Kelsey then playground with Alex. I've figured it out, figured out what makes my realtionships hard and why I do certain things. I don't want to get stuck in this pattern because then I may never come out of it. He's been good for me. This is what I need. Sometimes it is hard to not freak out about things, but in reality, this is good. What we both need. Seperate friends, seperate lives. Although I loved every minute of it, serperate names as well. it is nice to hear him talk about his parents and me, oh and her.
Almost eleven months. That's hard to believe. That started a major change in my life. Not just the end of one thing, but the beginning of a time where I truly was able to work things out. There's not a day that goes by that I don't remember. Finally, I can talk without crying, yelling or moping around for days. I'm rationalizing which is working. Because I know why, after that, you jsut do. I still cry when I hear that song. Seeing pictures creates the same emotions. It's weird though, now I think back and sometimes I can't remember. I mean, I can because I'll never forget but i can't remember being with him. But i can still feel the warmth of his skin. I gave him the most emotions and he did the same. I just wish I didn't hurt him.
Next year should be fun, I'm really exciting. Amazing schedule, SGA President with two projects already in place, Senior!, and driving through the sunset.
"I might not get in but Meghan's my best friend so I'll be there anyway." That made me smile.
"Hello, Sunshine!"
"I want Meghan time, too."
Being there means leaving here
Saying yes means saying no
Moving on means letting go of all that is sure
Sing a new song
I might have a new song, but the bridge will always be the same.