I don't know

[leggomimeggo]

I've been in a very weird mood over the past two weeks. I want to be alone. Either by myself or with one, maybe two other people. I'm very intimidated by big groups at the moment, maybe it's just my group though. I think I'm kind of sick of them. I don't want to go to his birthday party, is that mean? I really have no interest in going. And that Junior wide cook out, no thanks. Have to think f an excuse to get out of that one.I've been really lazy, no homework or exams will do that to you. I haven't thought about him, ah, It's time. He's been amazing, I just don't want to get to involved, college and whatnot will get in the way. I have nausea every day. Serioulsy, there hasn't been a moment when I haven't thought I would throw up, the only thing of substance I've eaten is toast. I fall asleep all the time and my gums hurt. SOunds like I"m pregnant, but that's impossible. Somehow I managed to barely pass Physics, I mean that in a very negative way. Stupid student teacher and scatter brained real teacher. Fuck. There goes 4.0. Don't reeally want to go to Nationals, eh, I might want to later. My mom is pissing my off, we now have a dog and my dad is helpless becasue of his surgery. I've been carless for 6 months and I'm going crazy. I need a car. Governor's School in about two weeks, I can't wait. Except I'll miss him. All we have is the summer, and that is slowly dwindling. Off to write an English essay, looks like shit so far. Then time to shower and primp for Graduation, I'm attending on the insistence of Alex. I'm looking forward to it but I know I will have some weird emotions with it. I can't quite figure them all out. Look like toast again for dinner, yum, hope I'm not dying.

You make me happy
You make me smile
I haven't been cared for since then
Moving on means letting go
of that I am sure
We shared a kiss under teh leaves
That I know is true
You and me, together for now
But as for tomorrow
I don't know