I can't even begin to express
Let's see...Missing school at Hume-Fogg is a hell of a lot harder than missing school at Dreyfoos, let's make that known.
Now that i have semi accecpted that fact I have also accepted the fact that a mental, physical and emotional breakdown are probably on the horizon. I never get to breathe and sit back and watch people go by me. I'm always the one walking by.
School's a bitch, work's alright, friends are cool. Parents are insane, siblings are annoying and cats are theraputic.
I did nothing this weekend except school work and fight off the flu and I still feel like I'm not caught up. Maybe next weekend I will be. Or the weekend after that. Or I will be playing a continuous game of catch until college, law school, retirement even.
Lots of stuff has been going on in Meghanland, stuff I don't even know about. I want so much, but I'm scared to go for it. Scared about what I'll lose, who I'll hurt and what I'll look like. Risks need to be taken and I know they are worth it, but is it what I want. Is it what will happen eventually, or would I be going against what's in store for me. But wouldn't it already be in store for me so I really wouldn't be going against anything.
Hm...A lot of decisions are about to be made and I'm really afraid of what kind of change they will bring.
Now that i have semi accecpted that fact I have also accepted the fact that a mental, physical and emotional breakdown are probably on the horizon. I never get to breathe and sit back and watch people go by me. I'm always the one walking by.
School's a bitch, work's alright, friends are cool. Parents are insane, siblings are annoying and cats are theraputic.
I did nothing this weekend except school work and fight off the flu and I still feel like I'm not caught up. Maybe next weekend I will be. Or the weekend after that. Or I will be playing a continuous game of catch until college, law school, retirement even.
Lots of stuff has been going on in Meghanland, stuff I don't even know about. I want so much, but I'm scared to go for it. Scared about what I'll lose, who I'll hurt and what I'll look like. Risks need to be taken and I know they are worth it, but is it what I want. Is it what will happen eventually, or would I be going against what's in store for me. But wouldn't it already be in store for me so I really wouldn't be going against anything.
Hm...A lot of decisions are about to be made and I'm really afraid of what kind of change they will bring.