mental, mental, it's all fucking mental
Playing video games has actually taught me a little about myself. It's quite interesting!
1. I do not like a challenge. I tried playing Dragon Age II on the normal setting...and I was making it through okay. Only had to turn back down the difficulty for one tough boss battle. But something was wrong.
I didn't enjoy it. I struggled with this, and felt like I should be trying harder to be better at the game. Then I decided, "screw it." It's a fucking video game. It doesn't matter if I'm good at it or not. It matters if I'm having fun. So I turned it back down to the easiest setting possible and now it's fun again. I still struggle with feeling a little guilty about this, and like my video game accomplishments are somehow cheapened, but I really just don't think it should matter. And I'm trying to judge myself against my past self, rather than what everyone else might be doing.
2. If I have the opportunity to flirt where there's absolutely no possibility of getting rejected, I'll flirt. That's interesting. I wish in real life you got a dialogue wheel with a flirt option clearly marked by a heart symbol. That would make things a lot easier. Also if you could check peoples' friend/rivalry meters.
1. I do not like a challenge. I tried playing Dragon Age II on the normal setting...and I was making it through okay. Only had to turn back down the difficulty for one tough boss battle. But something was wrong.
I didn't enjoy it. I struggled with this, and felt like I should be trying harder to be better at the game. Then I decided, "screw it." It's a fucking video game. It doesn't matter if I'm good at it or not. It matters if I'm having fun. So I turned it back down to the easiest setting possible and now it's fun again. I still struggle with feeling a little guilty about this, and like my video game accomplishments are somehow cheapened, but I really just don't think it should matter. And I'm trying to judge myself against my past self, rather than what everyone else might be doing.
2. If I have the opportunity to flirt where there's absolutely no possibility of getting rejected, I'll flirt. That's interesting. I wish in real life you got a dialogue wheel with a flirt option clearly marked by a heart symbol. That would make things a lot easier. Also if you could check peoples' friend/rivalry meters.