I just remembered I have this...
So I was just thinking about how I would really like to have a place to put my thoughts into writing, but I have terrible penmanship and my thoughts don't spill out fast enough when I try to handwrite, when it suddenly occurred to me I had one of those online journal thingys and maybe I should use that.
so ya. here I am.
I can't really decide what I think of this, because its basically me about to share some personal thoughts to basically the entire world (aka anyone who cares enough to read)
I feel sort of overwhelmed because so much is on my mind. Don't really know where to start.
Last week was interesting, I finally used my vacation time that I had accumulated, went on a road trip w/my roommate, her friend and my brother. we had a blast drving three days to montana, we laughed so much, more than I have in, I swear, years. It was great and wonderful to have that carefree feeling again, to pretend that I have no responsibilities in the world, that I don't have a job or bills, etc and just be FREE. anyway, so we were having a blast I was getting to hang out with brother, who is one of the coolest people in the world. and sawana, who since we moved in together I never see (ironic, huh?) and then Kimi whom I believe has one of the most beautiful hearts in the world. She is seriously so sweet and we had a blast getting to know each other. Its crazy how much we think alike. like all of the thoughts that I have that everyone finds random and out there, she has had. (we both wish we could be mother theresa esque, but realize how difficult that is to be such a selfless servant and unfortunately are too selfish to ever get to that point, maybe one day...but that is far, far away)
anyway, I'm rambling. so we get to this podunk little town, Savage, Montana (sawana and her family own a house up there which is why that was our destination) and after three freakin days of driving we are five houses away when some a**hole drunk comes careening thru the intersection where we had the right of way and we smacked right into him. (swans tried to break, thank god otherwise we would be dead, no joke) it was so scary. everyone is okay, some minor injuries, but i'm so thankful. if anything happened to my brother...well, if i think about it i get sick to my stomach and start to cry. anyway, so sawana's car is totalled, and what a damper on the trip. poop. we still managed to have some fun but all week we all felt banged up, sore and still kind of shook up. and then we kept having to talk to the insurance companies and try to figure out a way home. we decided to take the greyhound. oh my god. NEVER again. it was a forty hour trip on a bus full of seedy low class people. it was scary and I was anxiety ridden the whole time. some guy smelled like he pooed in his pants and was just sitting in it, it was awful. and someone tried to sell my brother drugs while he was in the bathroom at a bus stop. it was insane. somehow we managed to make some of the trip fun, but let me tell you, being in a bus that long, it wears on you no matter what and it becomes difficult to remain good spirited. We did manage to get back in one piece, and it was an experience that I can say changed me, its like i saw a different world. more than that, i was temporarily a part of this different world. Its scary and it made me realize how much i take for granted. I work hard for my money, mind you, but I realized I really need to appreciate what I have. there are so many people in this world, in this country that are struggling just for a bite to eat or for a roof over their heads.
anyway we got back to phoenix and my dad picked up my bro and i and i went at stayed at my parents house, which was very nice and comforting after everything that has happened in the past week. i woke up and how cute is this, my parents had easter baskets for us. i don't care if i'm 21, some things i'm never too old for, lol. It was really good to have time to talk with my dad, with my new schedule i don't see him as often anymore. its cool too because i think he really likes emilio. he treats me so well and i think he is seeing the extent of emilio's love for me. i know he worries and wants me to be happy. i never thought i would find someone i'd be this crazy about and they'd want to stick around even after they witnessed how crazy i can be. lol. at least i know it, right? anyway, emilio picked me up yesterday and we got to spend the day together, i missed him so much, it was so good to just be hugged by him. we got pizza and talked and then went later to help some kids at asu who are running for student government pres and vp. its funny, i'm so snotty when it comes to campaign running, everything was so disorganized and i saw so many better ways of going about things. their general ideas were good, but they could have been so much more efficient in getting them expedited. oh well, not everyone has been involved in campaign running since age 10. it was fun though, and emilio and i really helped them alot (seriously, they prolly would have been lost) then em and i went to IHOP, and i decided i really should just let him order for me b/c i always end up not wanting to eat what i ordered myself and taking his. lol.
you know something crazy? i just realized we've been together for like a year and a half. that is nuts. it doesn't really feel like that long.
well, i'm excited to see everybody, when you find yourself in a neardeath situation you long to be around everyone that has significance in your life. so my final two days off are being spent hanging out with every one i missed. :) fun stuff.
Wednesday, I return to the professional world and get to deal with the stresses of my new promotion. being supervisor is a lot harder than i thought it would be. i know i can do it, but wow, i have ALOT to learn. its going to be an interesting ride.
hopefully i will actually continue to use this (unlike when i originally started it a year ago, lol)
so ya. here I am.
I can't really decide what I think of this, because its basically me about to share some personal thoughts to basically the entire world (aka anyone who cares enough to read)
I feel sort of overwhelmed because so much is on my mind. Don't really know where to start.
Last week was interesting, I finally used my vacation time that I had accumulated, went on a road trip w/my roommate, her friend and my brother. we had a blast drving three days to montana, we laughed so much, more than I have in, I swear, years. It was great and wonderful to have that carefree feeling again, to pretend that I have no responsibilities in the world, that I don't have a job or bills, etc and just be FREE. anyway, so we were having a blast I was getting to hang out with brother, who is one of the coolest people in the world. and sawana, who since we moved in together I never see (ironic, huh?) and then Kimi whom I believe has one of the most beautiful hearts in the world. She is seriously so sweet and we had a blast getting to know each other. Its crazy how much we think alike. like all of the thoughts that I have that everyone finds random and out there, she has had. (we both wish we could be mother theresa esque, but realize how difficult that is to be such a selfless servant and unfortunately are too selfish to ever get to that point, maybe one day...but that is far, far away)
anyway, I'm rambling. so we get to this podunk little town, Savage, Montana (sawana and her family own a house up there which is why that was our destination) and after three freakin days of driving we are five houses away when some a**hole drunk comes careening thru the intersection where we had the right of way and we smacked right into him. (swans tried to break, thank god otherwise we would be dead, no joke) it was so scary. everyone is okay, some minor injuries, but i'm so thankful. if anything happened to my brother...well, if i think about it i get sick to my stomach and start to cry. anyway, so sawana's car is totalled, and what a damper on the trip. poop. we still managed to have some fun but all week we all felt banged up, sore and still kind of shook up. and then we kept having to talk to the insurance companies and try to figure out a way home. we decided to take the greyhound. oh my god. NEVER again. it was a forty hour trip on a bus full of seedy low class people. it was scary and I was anxiety ridden the whole time. some guy smelled like he pooed in his pants and was just sitting in it, it was awful. and someone tried to sell my brother drugs while he was in the bathroom at a bus stop. it was insane. somehow we managed to make some of the trip fun, but let me tell you, being in a bus that long, it wears on you no matter what and it becomes difficult to remain good spirited. We did manage to get back in one piece, and it was an experience that I can say changed me, its like i saw a different world. more than that, i was temporarily a part of this different world. Its scary and it made me realize how much i take for granted. I work hard for my money, mind you, but I realized I really need to appreciate what I have. there are so many people in this world, in this country that are struggling just for a bite to eat or for a roof over their heads.
anyway we got back to phoenix and my dad picked up my bro and i and i went at stayed at my parents house, which was very nice and comforting after everything that has happened in the past week. i woke up and how cute is this, my parents had easter baskets for us. i don't care if i'm 21, some things i'm never too old for, lol. It was really good to have time to talk with my dad, with my new schedule i don't see him as often anymore. its cool too because i think he really likes emilio. he treats me so well and i think he is seeing the extent of emilio's love for me. i know he worries and wants me to be happy. i never thought i would find someone i'd be this crazy about and they'd want to stick around even after they witnessed how crazy i can be. lol. at least i know it, right? anyway, emilio picked me up yesterday and we got to spend the day together, i missed him so much, it was so good to just be hugged by him. we got pizza and talked and then went later to help some kids at asu who are running for student government pres and vp. its funny, i'm so snotty when it comes to campaign running, everything was so disorganized and i saw so many better ways of going about things. their general ideas were good, but they could have been so much more efficient in getting them expedited. oh well, not everyone has been involved in campaign running since age 10. it was fun though, and emilio and i really helped them alot (seriously, they prolly would have been lost) then em and i went to IHOP, and i decided i really should just let him order for me b/c i always end up not wanting to eat what i ordered myself and taking his. lol.
you know something crazy? i just realized we've been together for like a year and a half. that is nuts. it doesn't really feel like that long.
well, i'm excited to see everybody, when you find yourself in a neardeath situation you long to be around everyone that has significance in your life. so my final two days off are being spent hanging out with every one i missed. :) fun stuff.
Wednesday, I return to the professional world and get to deal with the stresses of my new promotion. being supervisor is a lot harder than i thought it would be. i know i can do it, but wow, i have ALOT to learn. its going to be an interesting ride.
hopefully i will actually continue to use this (unlike when i originally started it a year ago, lol)