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How is it that my mentality changes so quickly? It probably hasn't been a sudden change. A lot has happened in the last year or so. A person can only have so many restless nights. There has to be a maximum of days spent stressed out and worrying. I believe I reached my limits a while ago. Occasionally, there's a blip in the system, and again (like today) I can't control my anxiety. However, these days are so few and far between now. I can't remember the last night I spent in bed and in tears. 4 years ago that was pretty much a nightly occurance -- as dramatic as that sounds. And now, well ... I've almost impressed myself.
What will be even more impressive will be staying up all night tomorrow to work at 4:30 am. Why shouldn't I be able to make it through 4 hours or work and a dentist appointment on no sleep? I know for a fact there are people who live through 5 1/2 days of much worse. Kind of makes me feel like a wimp.
Last year was full of ups and downs -- not very much unlike every other year. It's been approximately 10 days since 2006 began. In those 240ish hours I have been unable to come up with any kind of resolution. I know it may be a little late to start. Officially, not all of my 2006 will be spent trying to achieve the goals that I have just now decided upon. But, that's okay. Better late than never. I can't write them here because I know if I express them - I most likely will never accomplish them. It's a strange habit of mine. Instead, I will write it down elsewhere, only for me to read and remember. Maybe this approach will work better than ones used in previous years. I truely hope so.
What will be even more impressive will be staying up all night tomorrow to work at 4:30 am. Why shouldn't I be able to make it through 4 hours or work and a dentist appointment on no sleep? I know for a fact there are people who live through 5 1/2 days of much worse. Kind of makes me feel like a wimp.
Last year was full of ups and downs -- not very much unlike every other year. It's been approximately 10 days since 2006 began. In those 240ish hours I have been unable to come up with any kind of resolution. I know it may be a little late to start. Officially, not all of my 2006 will be spent trying to achieve the goals that I have just now decided upon. But, that's okay. Better late than never. I can't write them here because I know if I express them - I most likely will never accomplish them. It's a strange habit of mine. Instead, I will write it down elsewhere, only for me to read and remember. Maybe this approach will work better than ones used in previous years. I truely hope so.