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Alright so everyone ..well not everyone but a few ppl are kinda trying to make me feel like shit really badly... its really gay im not saying there not succeeding but whatever i could really care less, Troy isnt awnsering his fone cuz he sucks my moms ass. work was alright today. im really bored now and theres nothing to do ...but work was okay.. Stef was working 2-8, the same as me so i wasnt really bored. People explained things to me and everything acutally makes alot more sense than it did when i woke up this morning. I was thinking about a talk i had with my sister a while ago about how she said im not going to know my friends in a few years.. but im still going to no my family. i never really thought of wut she said. because not to sound like an idiot... ive completly lost all my real friends. and i guess things happen. 3 weeks ago... something happened that really changed my life.. and everytihng around me.. i have to learn to live with this.. and im beggining to. Friends come and go.. Guys come and go.. No one should be having a long relationship and talking about marriage when there in high school.. now that i think about it.. i laugh.. its really pathetic. People are really trying to make me feeel like shit but there going to have to try alot harder. Tomorrow i hope i hang out with troy :). i have plans with dan after work but hes going to ditch me and i would ditch him anyway. Ive been thinking alot about last year today. my whole life revolded around going to lynbrook with laura and seeing ryan and doing everything with laura and ryan. Its funny.. how one minute 2 ppl can be the best friend you ever had.. and the next..they are complete strangers. They are really good people but i guess people change... Everybody changes sooner or later. Im really just rambleing on with nothing to say because it is 8:24 and im sitting at home.. ha i remember when i used to have to run home because i was going to be late. it really sucks being home right now. I think iwas supposed to hang out with perez tomorrow.. but he always asks me and it neevr happens so screw that. As far as liking people ... right now im more confused than ever. I like this kid alot.. but him and my ex boyfriend dont get along. I really wish they did because there both really awesome people. and than theres this other kid who clearly just wants ass and i always ignore him anyway.. hes actually pretty gay lol . I was reading my old blurty today and i used to do ANYTHING to make someone jealous lol, i was a crazy kid. Yeah so i feel like im writing in this so long because im procrastinating to do something.. im not sure what it is though..
Soon I'll be dead, I'll lay in my bed
I've made in my years, I won't shed a tear