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hm. im chewing on my cheek because it feels cool. and when i stop chewing it, it throbes like it wants to be biten.
so the jenny lewis cd is cool. and im really fat. i wanted to go swimming and all of my bathing suits from last year totally dont fit, then i find the ones from 2 years ago that didnt fit last year, and i looked in my closet and every one of my favorite clothes are in piles in 4 hampers because they dont fit.
but i really like drinking whiskey and eating cheese and pickle sandwitches
i watched monkey trouble today when i was babysitting my neice addy. then i watched mean girls. and i talked to jay on the phone and fought and he called me a niger which is funny because he is mixed and then accused me of being racist which is rather funny considering half of my family is mixed, and as of lately the only guys i fuck around with are mixed or black.
jay is a really big asshole. huge asshole. but i still miss him and have sex dreams about him and wake up so sad because he isnt really laying next to me. i remember the last time he slept over when we were together he was sleeping and i got my breathing in the complete same pace as his. when i woke up i relized i was still breathing at his pace and it was really weird. i never told him, i think we broke up a week after that.
im thinking nothing i felt was even real.if it was real it wouldnt of ended. and i hate him just as much as i love him.
both of my dogs have cancer. my sisters pregnant with my 5th neice/nephew. and im turning 21. time has go to slow down. what can i look forward to when ive already done my first line and fucked my first fuck.
death?
a new jenny lewis cd? because of fucking course theres no more elliott smith.
in all honesty music is dull and i want to smoke a blunt.
so the jenny lewis cd is cool. and im really fat. i wanted to go swimming and all of my bathing suits from last year totally dont fit, then i find the ones from 2 years ago that didnt fit last year, and i looked in my closet and every one of my favorite clothes are in piles in 4 hampers because they dont fit.
but i really like drinking whiskey and eating cheese and pickle sandwitches
i watched monkey trouble today when i was babysitting my neice addy. then i watched mean girls. and i talked to jay on the phone and fought and he called me a niger which is funny because he is mixed and then accused me of being racist which is rather funny considering half of my family is mixed, and as of lately the only guys i fuck around with are mixed or black.
jay is a really big asshole. huge asshole. but i still miss him and have sex dreams about him and wake up so sad because he isnt really laying next to me. i remember the last time he slept over when we were together he was sleeping and i got my breathing in the complete same pace as his. when i woke up i relized i was still breathing at his pace and it was really weird. i never told him, i think we broke up a week after that.
im thinking nothing i felt was even real.if it was real it wouldnt of ended. and i hate him just as much as i love him.
both of my dogs have cancer. my sisters pregnant with my 5th neice/nephew. and im turning 21. time has go to slow down. what can i look forward to when ive already done my first line and fucked my first fuck.
death?
a new jenny lewis cd? because of fucking course theres no more elliott smith.
in all honesty music is dull and i want to smoke a blunt.