[FANFIC] CONSTANT HAPPINESS - CHAPTER 7

[leesarang13]

 


a dedication to karen_ren

Constant Happiness

Author: leesarang13 
Summary: "She is your happiness, not me"
Rating: PG

P R O L O G U E

C H A P T E R O N E

C H A P T E R T W O PART 1

C H A P T E R T W O PART 2

C H A P T E R T H R E E

C H A P T E R F O U R

C H A P T E R F I V E

C H A P T E R S I X


C H A P T E R S E V E N

It’s not like they are on a good term now but whenever they path cross, it was hard NOT TO smile!

“You better keep yourself away from him Yoona. The girls have been gossiping about you.” So Yoona heard from Henry.

She knows his intention well. She also aware of people had been talking about her being the reason to Sunye and Donghae broken relationship. But Yoona had her own way of keeping herself away from Donghae.

However, to be real honest with herself, it will be nice to have him back in her life and be the good friend they used to be but current situation did not allow that to happen. So she kept herself away from him for good.

But she returned his smile whenever he smiles to her.

She returned the greeting when he said “hi” to her.

She did not push him away every time he sat next to her in the library.

Glaring eyes, she cannot avoid that.

She just lost, on how she should react with him now.

Yoona wanted Donghae to get back together with Sunye. SO bad, so she could live her life in peace. Maybe she should talk to Sunye. But how? The question now is how to get herself to talk to Sunye. She doesn’t know Sunye personally, only by words of others in all are good words.

Maybe she should console with someone about it but she contemplates
.
She wanted to talk to Sunye and ask her everything she had in her mind but she hesitated.
Yoona scratch her unitchy head.

“Hey, what’s wrong?” Nana asked, wondering why Yoona suddenly scratching her head when she is not doing any mathematics problem.

“I was just thinking what that Kang Minhyuk said until you agree to go out with him” Yoona said jokingly, try to hide her worry away.
Nana glared at her. Nana had just started dating this guy with the said name but it was hard to believe at first because Nana is one stubborn girl with pretty face. “Don’t try to change the subject Yoona”
Yoona smiled at Nana but Nana’s face is still emotionless.

“Okay.. nothing”

“Are you sure?”

‘Yeah…”

“Do talk to me if you want to. Not now, whenever you’re ready.”

This is why being friend with Nana is so comforting. Because she understands Yoona.
Maybe she should console with this problem.

“Nana…”
“3 seconds.”
“What?”
“I timed it. It took 3 seconds for you to decide to tell me, breaking the record for the last time when you decide whether to tell me that I suck at cooking or not”
“Reason why you are my bestfriend” Yoona said sarcastically.

“Okay now shoot”

Taking her breath, Yoona told Nana about her plan of talking to Sunye and trying to hitch Sunye and Donghae back. Nana listened to her attentively. She went quiet the moment Yoona finished with her last word of “So?”

“I know this girl from Sunye’s class”

The sudden rush in Yoona’s vein, the speed of her blood running inside her vein.

“I can get her to set you up with Sunye”
“You made it sounds like I am looking for a blind date”
“I will help you to help Donghae to get back with Sunye. Though I would’ve like it to set Donghae up for myself”
“You have Kang Minhyuk!”
“Oh yeah, I forgot his existence” Nana joked, trying to relief Yoona from her worries

**
This is even more nerve-wreaking than a blind date!

Well, not that she had ever been set up to one but according to Nana, this is how she felt during her first date with Minhyuk guy.

After three days of hesitating whether or not she should talk to Sunye, she finally decided to do so after she saw Donghae eating all alone in cafeteria today.

Her heart beating so fast. Relax Im Yoona she told herself as she waited in the café near the school.
Finally she spotted Sunye.

Walking with grace inside the café, making her way towards where Yoona and Nana sat.

Indeed, an angel. So calm, so beautiful and Gosh, she is a girl, complimenting another girl!

“She is perfect, right?” Nana seemed to voice out her thought. Yoona still sat still, silently agreeing.
Sunye saw Yoona and Nana and with a sweet smile, she waves her hand in a friendly gesture.

Yoona was so stunned that she found herself doing the same too though they were never acquaintance with each other.

“Annyeong Haseyo,” she greeted formally but that smile never leave her small face “I am sorry. The Algebra held me back” she said jokingly and Nana laughed. But Yoona just can’t laugh. She tried but the laugh was not coming out.

No wonder Donghae is so crazy about this girl, she is a beauty inside and out

And funny too.

Sunye and Nana share a few minutes talking, like they have known each other for so long. And Yoona just sat there, feeling the ignorance.

“Oh yeah, sorry Sunye, I am sorry I forgot to introduce my friend. This is…” “Yoona, right?” Sunye cuts in.
Yoona nodded, half surprised, half pleased that Sunye knows her name.

Sunye smiled, it was sweet. Her smiles tells Yoona not to worry about how she learn her name without being introduced to.

But they say curiosity kills the cat. Yoona sigh silently and silently cursing herlsf why she asked Nana to arrange this meeting with Sunye.

Throughout Nana’s conversation with Sunye (turned out, they used to live in the same neighborhood)
Time flies and it seems Sunye and Nana has lost of topic to talk about but Yoona still remained silence. Nana seemed to understand Yoona’s difficulty to ask Sunye. Nana also understand that Yoona doesn’t have the intention to hurt Sunye, if she ever ask the question.

“Is it okay if I ask you about Donghae?’

Suddenly Yoona starting to voice out things she had been bottled up and that surprise both Sunye and Nana.
Nana wasn’t expecting Yoona to ask so directly.

Sunye wasn’t expecting that kind of question from Yoona. And she also did not realize the way she jerked her eyes at Yoona’s question.

“I am sorry if this kinda bothers you but I need to get things cleared out” Yoona rationalize her speech.
Sunye appeared to be calm a seconds after before expressing “It’s okay. What do you want to ask?”

Yoona took a deep breath before said “Can I ask you why you broken up with Donghae? Pardon me for being so rude but I need to clarify a few things about Donghae and I hope you will listen to me first” Yoona said when she saw Sunye’s trying to cut her off.

“Donghae,” Yoona looked down on her cup. She was afraid if she appeared to be weak in front of Sunye “, he is a great guy. He used to be my friend but we stopped talking since we move to high school. But I know he is still a great guy. I am so sure he wasn’t cheating on you. I hope you will think twice about this break up thingy. I’m sure you still love him”

Sunye smiled. Again. Placing both of her hand under her chin, Sunye calmly said “Yoona-ssi, do you know how I learn your name?”

Yoona bewildered by the sudden and -she dares say, unrelated question but she just shook her head.

“I know you through Donghae” “Excuse me?” Yoona exclaimed in disbelief “He always tells me about you”

“He did not! I mean, I don’t want you to make false accusation on what now has been rumor in our school. Donghae did not cheat on you and if he did, it’s definitely not with me”

Sunye giggled at that statement “I know he did not cheat on me and if he did, I know for sure it is not with you”

Yoona exhaled the uneasiness. Okay, at least she did not believe in that stupid rumor.

“Yoona-ssi, I know a lot about you. You like to dance right? And when you were 12, Donghae was your dance partner and he messed up the routine and you were mad at him right? And he really likes dark chocolate because that was the first candy he could eat that is not sweet and it was made by you.”

Yoona was stunned by the fact Sunye just blurted out. “Why did he tells you all that”

“I like him but I don’t think I love him.”

Nana whom was sat next to Yoona couldn’t express anything as she was too immersed in understanding the chronicle of the story.

“Look Sunye-ssi, I think you worrying a little too much. I’m sure Donghae telling you about me is sharing story. Maybe he wants you to be closer to him telling you about his past”

Sunye lock her hair behind her ear and let the other side fell perfectly on her cheeks.

“I know what I want Yoona-ssi and I know what he wants. What he wants is not in me. I can bring him happiness”
If this is a forest, Yoona will get lost for sure.

“I don’t think you know what you want Sunye-ssi” Yoona sighed.
“In fact I do and I know I am not the for Donghae”
Yoona shook her head in disbelief. Her plan failed miserably.

“Yoona-ssi…” Sunye voice broke the silence.
“Sunye-ssi, did you know Donghae was all broken hearted the night you dump him? If he was a glass, you could see he shattered in pieces” Yoona said in one breath, fast but calm. Anger in calm.

And it was weird how Sunye could calmly reply to her “How did you know?”

The table has turned. It was Yoona now that was shocked with the sudden question. Yes, how did she found out? should she tell Sunye about the night Donghae hugged her and cry on her shoulder? Should she tell her how he even ask Yoona to the restaurant that Donghae was meant to book for Sunye?

There was no other sounds except the ticking of the clock on the wall. Seems like everyone had been held in their breath.

“Yoona-ssi, I understand your good intention but I have no plan to get back with Donghae”

Yoona nodded, finally began to understand what Sunye wants. Maybe, it makes her happy.
“I understand that. Sorry Sunye-ssi for bothering you”

“And…”Sunye continued before Yoona get up from her seat “I hope we can be friend” Sunye said with a shy but bright smile.

Yoona look at her and slowly showing all her nicely arranged teeth when she smiles back at Sunye.
“Why not?”

**
So Yoona understands now that things might not go the way it expected to. Her plans failed-miserably. But she learn one thing about Sunye, a nice beautiful girl she is, that from her act and speech, she really has move on with her life.

But deep inside she pray for that girl to change her mind

**

The wind changes its direction and the wind of winter starts to blow across the place. And that was how Donghae love story ended.

Donghae realize he was all heartbroken but he also realizes the needs to move on. It was tough but he needs to get up and smile again. Because he realized by now that what he thought would be his sole happiness, is no longer his.

And deep inside he knew and he is confident in finding his happiness again.

**

Winter…

Yoona most favorite season. In fact, every year, she will counted the days till the first snow. The only thing she wrote on her diary was the note on the first day of snow.

People would think the first snow is full of melancholic but the rest of the season is depressing but it was the other way round for Yoona.

She will get the weirdest inspiration during winter and the only time she would write on her cyworld is during winter with the picture of places with snow on them.

Nana would call her weird.

Henry whom she just met thinks she is crazy because he was complaining how all he get to see on her cyworld are her snowy pictures and was only updated once a year.

Her dad likes her photography skill.

Her sister just nodded.

But only one person has been a constant commenter on each picture everyday for the past 5 years since she was eleven.

It was Donghae.

He will comment on every single picture she took consistently until she stops posting when spring started.
But then he stops commenting when they were 16.

Nothing.

The long holiday of winter is among Yoona’s most favorite holiday. With night longer than day, she has time to go out for a walk and be home to have her ‘hibernation’ when the sky turns dark. She uses the day wisely to walk around Seoul, discovering new places has never been and took picture of snowy places everywhere.
Her dad used to drive her around, showing her interesting places of the city when she was younger but she now that she has grown up, she can just go anywhere she likes using public transportation without having to burden her father.

Winter can get very cold but Yoona likes how behind the thickness of the snow, she could see the kids laughing and playing with their peers along Han River. She loves how the thickness of the clothes did not render the love of the husband when he warmed up his wife’s hand.

So many great things to look forward to during winter. So today, Yoona decided she should explores Kangam, the place where she went for the first time with Donghae.

No, scratch that. She was forced by Donghae.

But thanks to him, she has now decided that the place was not too bad. The place for rich people. Only the best café are there, people say. Only the branded items you’ll never get to see at any other part of Korea are there, so they say. And of course, the best dance, singing, arts classes are located there too, so some say.
So she wonders what do people of high class doing on winter? Shopping still? Walking around in branded heels, still?

Aah, she was so curious that she decided to set off right away after breakfast.

“So, where are you going today?” her father asked her over the breakfast that morning.
“Kangnam” she answered with a mouthful of rice.
“I’ll head there this morning. Had a meeting around that area. Want me to drop you there?”
“YES! Thank you Appa!”
“Don’t forget the pictures on your cyworld” her father reminded her, seems to be too understanding of his daughter’s interest.

Yoona just smiled sweetly until her eyes turns crescent.

“Appa, I think you have a crazy daughter” Yoona’s sister chirped in while spreading (low-fat) butter on her bread.

“Yeah, and that’s you unnie” Yoona poke out her tongue towards her sister.

Yoona’s father just laughed looking at her daughters. In fact, he always had fun watching these two bickering.His daughters are the reason he keeps on smiling after the death of his wife. He had to be strong as these two girls had been motherless for almost ten years.

“How was the first snow?” the father purposely doing his work of stopping these two from bickering.
At the mentioning of the snow, Yoona got excited. Her face lightens up.
“Oh, it was beautiful!.” She exclaimed “but it seems like the wind blew stronger than last year but it didn’t rain, just strong wind”

“Oh great! Now we have weather forecast in this house!” Yoona’s sister said sarcastically while munching her bread.

Before Yoona managed to snap her sister, her father quickly asked her “did you managed to take any pictures? Where were you?

Every year, Yoona’s father will ask him this question and every year Yoona had different answer to share and she had fun sharing them with his father.

“I was on my way back from dancing practice. It was chilly but it was indeed very beautiful”

Her father smiled, happy with his daughter contentment.

Her sister laughed, thinking she got a silly creature as a sister.

And Yoona just sigh thinking that maybe her family members think she is the weird one.

And later, Yoona joined her father for a ride to Kangnam.
“So are you going to stay until late?” the question of concern from the father.
“I have nobody to follow me around like I used to” she said nonchalantly.
“Do you mean me or you have a new guy in your life?” her father trying to hide his chuckles.

Yoona turned around, facing his father who is trying to hold in his laughter.
“Okay, are you being sarcastic Appa? You know I never had any boyfriend” she said while crossing her arms over her chest.

Now the smile of her father seems broader.
“I always view Donghae as a good candidate until you guys fight, “we did not fight” Yoona cuts her dad but he chose to ignore her “But then I think maybe you deserve someone better. Now thinking about it, that nerdy Taec you told me about was not a bad of a choice at all”

“Appa!” Yoona exclaimed and her father cannot hold in his laughter anymore.

“Aigoo, my pretty daughter. It’s not that you are not pretty but I think you are too choosy”

“I think I am too young to be hurt” Yoona stating her fact.

Her father nodded in agreement but still smiling.

Finally her father dropped her in front of the water fountain in the middle of the street.

“Enjoy your snow dear” his father said before drove off.

Indeed, Yoona definitely going to enjoy today.

As she walk in the streets of Kangnam, she happened to pass by a lot of things. some she just kept it in her heart and some she managed to capture.

How she came across a 5 years old girls crying because her mum forced her to wear a dress during winter. The little girl seems cold so maybe that was the reason she cried but her mum choose ignore her and asked her to stop whining. Yoona bet the dress cost more than her Canon DSLR that she held in her hand. No, she did not capture the moment.

How she saw a couple fighting in front of the jewelry shop because the boyfired happened to get her the wrong size of their couple ring made the girlfriend thinks he was cheating on her, accusing that guy bought the ring for another girl. Even when she stood quite far from them, she could see the size of the diamond. That might cost more than her own house. No, she did not capture that moment.

But she managed to take picture of an old couple walking hand in hand as they are walking down the busy shopping mall in Kangnam.

And she managed to capture kids playing the snow happily, throwing the flakes all around each other.

Well, happiness doesn’t always last and sadness will go away at some point. That was how she viewed the place today. Yes, the people who have been here, shopping, owning land around this area has more money than anyone but that doesn’t mean they can buy happiness. A simple conclusion of life she learnt today behind the lense.
And as she walked around the fountain, her camera captured a man with a very familiar face and he looked solemn as he overlooks the sky.

Using her lens, she zoomed in until his face is clear behind the capture.

And gladly he never noticed her.

Donghae. Alone in the busy street of Kangnam. Sitting on a bench in front of a café.
What is he doing here?

Yoona didn’t notice how her finger was fast in capturing him. he looked down and depressed. And it feels like winter is gloomy all around him.

“Whenever its winter, it’s the best time to take a walk” Yoona recalled Donghae’s word as he accompanied her one snowy winter day, 3 years ago. Back then, it was hard for Yoona to walk around all alone for safety reason as her dad would say so her dad always asked Donghae to be by her side which according to Donghae it was a pleasure for him (and Yoona think he was lying).
“Walking in whether like this make me happy” he said again

But now he definitely didn’t look happy. Maybe something happened and Yoona didn’t think she should care any longer so she walked off, continuing her journey along this street.


P R E V I E W
"Bad Lee Donghae.
I know it's abit awkward since we are not talking righj now. Honestly, I don't understand why you were mad when that Ock boy gave me chocolate but you have no right to snatch it and throw the present in front of him. You will hurt him that way! It's not like I'm allergy like you but you don't have to do it that way.

Aigoo~ I don't know what to say anymore.
Are we still friend then?
-Im Yoona/your mean Im Choding"