Freak.
When I go to play guitar, and I can't carry a song
When I try to conduct myself at work, and I screw up anyway
When I remember that I'm about to turn seventeen, and I've never had a boyfriend
When I see what a spoiled brat I am
When I try to list anything I've done right, and come up blank
I feel like a freak.
When nobody else can understand what I said or wrote
When I can't explain why I just did something
When secrets get out
When I am replaced
When I am obsessed
When I am alone
When I can't think anymore because it's all too much
I begin to learn that I am a freak.
Just now I heard my mother say, "isn't that the girl who used to cut herself?" with disgust to the TV.
Just now I realized that this is how she thinks of me.
and now I'm sure
that I should get used
to being
a freak.
When I try to conduct myself at work, and I screw up anyway
When I remember that I'm about to turn seventeen, and I've never had a boyfriend
When I see what a spoiled brat I am
When I try to list anything I've done right, and come up blank
I feel like a freak.
When nobody else can understand what I said or wrote
When I can't explain why I just did something
When secrets get out
When I am replaced
When I am obsessed
When I am alone
When I can't think anymore because it's all too much
I begin to learn that I am a freak.
Just now I heard my mother say, "isn't that the girl who used to cut herself?" with disgust to the TV.
Just now I realized that this is how she thinks of me.
and now I'm sure
that I should get used
to being
a freak.