sadness...
im feeling extra crappy right now, so im probably gunna have a tl;dr emo rant for 5 years, so be warned...
why do we feel the saddest when there is nobody around to cheer us up?
its like second nature to me; the moment im completely and utterly alone i dwell on the things that make me the saddest...
which is a little aggravating since i have no control over it whatsoever...
once that one sad thought comes to mind, the floodgates open to a portal of hell
its the opposite of the Glad Game; its the Sad Game
i want to think of happy things and i end up making myself sadder...
Its okay, you have a roof over your head and family that loves you...
well thats just great because WE'RE GOING TO LOSE OUR HOUSE!
DX
But your family still loves you...
hah...my mother loves me but shes at work 90% of the time so i cant spend time with her, and my dad isnt even a dad to me, more like a little annoying brother...what kind of family is that?
see? the moment a beautiful thought pops into my head its stomped out by an ugly one...
of course this isnt all the time, i wouldnt be on here if i felt like this 24/7...
its mostly unspoken issues that i dont want to put on here for various reasons...
(if you're dying to know pm me and ill tell you)
and said various reasons make me really depressed and make me not like myself...
its like HOW CAN YOU BE SUCH A BITCH?!? THATS SO CRUEL...
but thats how it is, and hard as i try, i cant change it...
writing this down really does make me feel a lot better, since i usually keep my feelings bottled up and let them ferment inside me until they boil over and i end up doing/saying stupid things to make people worry...
*pauses for a minute*
its really aggravating (god i use that word a lot) that the source of my sadness is my own anger...
why i am angry i have no idea, but the onslaught of agitation that has been thrown upon me has led to this said "anger"
which is odd because the agitation wasnt there before, it would come and go and would essentialy be gone...
but lately, it has turned into turmoil inside me...
why was i able to deal with this a few weeks ago, yet now i cant stand it?
of course my contemplating only leaves me even more irritated.
it makes me sick when i think about it...
my stomach churns and i dont feel well...
i usually feel that when im under emotional distress, much like other people probably do...
i have no idea how to deal with said problem, probably because i wont get the answers i want to hear...
the best bet for now is to keep chugging forward with life and deal with it...
isnt it funny how my post went from sad, angry, to complacent just like that? XD
im going to make myself happy by posting a few pictures that make me lol...
(lol yami XD)
(haha lol omg wft)
(the face shes making makes the picture)
(your balls...ive found a way to counter them...)
(methinks his buddies are a little gay, eh? XD)
(hell yeah! retarded face and pose FTW!)
(this one made me go O.O...then laugh XD)
Abe, the master of subtlety...
*unzips*
You wanna have sex?
XD
and of course i saved the best for last...
lol harry! wtf are you doing?!?! XD
rons face is classic...
what the hell is this guy doing, im clearly not gay...
aaah but in our dirty minds you most certainly are...
^^
who knew this emorant would turn into a picdump? XD
ETA: had to fix this like 400 times before i got it just the way i wanted XD