Streaming writing
I'm trying to do some streaming writing. It's an exercise we practice in my writing workshop, in order to open you up to writing, break writer's blocks, and get your mind flooded with ideas and inspiration. You're supposed to write everything that comes to mind, without thinking about it, criticizing or limiting yourself. You're not suppose to delete anything either, because that's holding you back, but I think in this case I'm going to ignore this rule.
I have so many things waiting on my "to write" list. Some of them more urgent, some of them somewhat less so.
Weekly and non-weekly columns, texts for zines, and lecture proposals, short stories that I've sketches for, articles that I was asked for, duties long postponed, and the list goes on and on. . But instead of doing all that, I end up staring at the computer, browsing random websites, uploading links to facebook, and chatting on gmail. I do some useful things in between, and a great portion of the emails I write are important, but I can't help but get the notion that I could've and should've done it all in much shorter time. I'm not certain what's holding me back. Probably a combination of good old procrastination habit, and lack of confidence in my skills as a writer. I wish that all those "orders" waiting, and these short stories ideas that are just waiting to be written would convince me that I am a worthy writer, that I am creative and interesting, and that I should only let myself go and start writing in order to make something out of it.
I wanted to write something about that horrible dream from last week, and how it affected me, and hopefully let it out of my system, and also about how political sturggle affects activists and the attempts we're starting to make in order to deal with it.
But I guess I really should try and make and effort and focus on the things that are deadlined, instead of distracting me by others. I have a weekend that will mostly be spent in Jerusalem, and whteher or not I'll decide to go to Suoth Hebron on Saturday (I guess that depends on how late will the fund-raising party on Friday will go on, and the amount of liqueuer I consume - most likely quite a lot, given that the bartender is a fellow activist), it's quite likely that between two demos and two parties, I won't have much time for writing on the weekend.
I have so many things waiting on my "to write" list. Some of them more urgent, some of them somewhat less so.
Weekly and non-weekly columns, texts for zines, and lecture proposals, short stories that I've sketches for, articles that I was asked for, duties long postponed, and the list goes on and on. . But instead of doing all that, I end up staring at the computer, browsing random websites, uploading links to facebook, and chatting on gmail. I do some useful things in between, and a great portion of the emails I write are important, but I can't help but get the notion that I could've and should've done it all in much shorter time. I'm not certain what's holding me back. Probably a combination of good old procrastination habit, and lack of confidence in my skills as a writer. I wish that all those "orders" waiting, and these short stories ideas that are just waiting to be written would convince me that I am a worthy writer, that I am creative and interesting, and that I should only let myself go and start writing in order to make something out of it.
I wanted to write something about that horrible dream from last week, and how it affected me, and hopefully let it out of my system, and also about how political sturggle affects activists and the attempts we're starting to make in order to deal with it.
But I guess I really should try and make and effort and focus on the things that are deadlined, instead of distracting me by others. I have a weekend that will mostly be spent in Jerusalem, and whteher or not I'll decide to go to Suoth Hebron on Saturday (I guess that depends on how late will the fund-raising party on Friday will go on, and the amount of liqueuer I consume - most likely quite a lot, given that the bartender is a fellow activist), it's quite likely that between two demos and two parties, I won't have much time for writing on the weekend.